lalala, DOOJOON IS CUTE! >.<
Thursday, December 31, 2009
2:56 PM

Basically I went to school today. Wishing to God that I'll meet him at school. And guess what, I really met him! He was there at school, with his friends. Frankly speaking, I didn't really made that wish like I really wanna see him. Just that if I really meant to meet him, then I'll get the chance. So, he appeared at school and I was like SO DAMN HAPPY!!! He really is growing taller, taller than before. I came to school for the registration and he was there because of the same thing too...I guess. Well, heading up to my classroom with my mom. I was my add math teacher which is going to be my class teacher next year. And for my surprised, Hyerim was there^^, waiting for me. And what was next was I saw the always known as 'robot'. Seriously, he really is making me crazy. He really has to stop with his 'acting'. That faker is totally a pathetic creature. Being like what he is now is really making people hate him. Why don't he just stop with it? I mean like seriously, that isn't something fun or even funny. If he thinks that people will like say 'He's cool' or what so ever, he has to stop course no one think that way. Aish...
After the registration, I went to buy my books and TADA~~ He [not the robot] was there...^^ Buying books too. I was standing beside him but more like next to him. It was really hot, but he was there which made me happy enough to forget the hotness that was burning my skin. Hyerim was so loud, making him looked at us which also made me blushed. But thanked God that the hotness of the sun that was burning my skin covered up my already red cheeks.*^^*
I'm happy today.^^ My last farewell of 2009, seeing him for the last day of 2009. I'm super happy now. But he'll be leaving, I guess. He had such a good results, so he'll be attending college. But I really don't want him to go~~TT.TT But I'll be happy for him, he'll be a better student if really goes to the boarding school...

Today will be the last farewell for 2009, year of us! I'm really happy this year. There're lots of people I met. I'm happy that I gain lots of knowledge, lots of friends. The most precious will be my dongsaeng duel!!! Kim Yunni and Faithy Park! I love you girls SO SO MUCH!!!^^ Always wishing you good luck on your SAT...=) We shall meet again...
Let us sing LAST FAREWELL~~~ by Big Bang!

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Wednesday, December 30, 2009
7:28 PM

He came to me with his both eyes were totally loaded with salted tears; falling down from his eyes, non-stop. The tears that were falling from his eyes all the way to his chin were bitter; the feelings were bitter. The reason was still a secret. He just made me cried along with him like he did before. "It was too painful; too hard; too bitter. I can't stand it anymore, I don't wanna know anything about it. Those word were too harsh!" Then it all went into a blankness. What was that? I had no ideas about it. He stopped with his tears; laughing like mad. I was too confused. He laughed while his tears were still running out from his eyes. What was that? I really confused. He broke the hug; clinging on the collar of my shirt; looking at me like he was going to eat me. He laughed; an evil, scary laugh. He dropped his forehead on my shoulder, started to cry again.
"It was way too hard for me to handle it. No more, stop it, I don't wanna know! I'm a pathetic creature. Haha, it's funny, isn't it?" He said; crying, laughing, smirking. He was so different. So different from the one that I know. He then stopped; stopped from everything that he was doing just now. He tilted his head and looked at me; emotionless. He stared at me, which making me cried. He wiped the tears that were following down on my cheeks, he hugged me back. Patting on my head gentle, stroking my back smoothly.
"I'm sorry." That was the only word that came out from his mouth. I closed my eyes; hugging him back. The minute I opened my eyes, he was gone. Nowhere could be seen from my eyes, missing from the embrace. Totally gone. Where could he be? I called him "oppa!". But I heard nothing in returned. Again, that was all a lie. Again, what I was doing was all alone. AGAIN AND AGAIN!

I woke up, it was just a dream again. The time was around 3 in the morning. I went back to sleep. Really, I started to hate this dream. Keep on coming and go. Why was he feeling so sad in my dream? I just couldn't get it.

I heard noises, laughing and cheering. The feeling were happy. I could feel myself smiling. I opened my eyes, I found a big cake and lots of people. Some of the people that I know and some of the people that I don't know. The one who was standing beside me was...Minho?? All I could think of was "Why is SHINee's Minho is here? Onew and the rest were there too. They were singing a birthday song. OH YEAH! We have the same date of birth. But why are they celebrating my birthday too? The song ended with clapping hands.

I woke up, it was just a dream. Why am I having weird dream these days? Very weird, I don't like it! The dreams were happy and sad. I just don't like it, I felt like something is wrong. REALLY WRONG! I am happy now, but still. I don't really feel good with this.

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Monday, December 28, 2009
9:37 PM

When I woke up, I found out that a smile was drawn on my face yet a drop of tear leaving one side of my eyes. I never felt this happy and this sad before, this could be the first time. I looked straight up at my closet; where my SHINee's, Big Bang's and FT Island's poster were placing on the side of my closet. My eyes caught at GD. He appeared in my dream; a wonderful, happy, beautiful, cute, sweet, comfortable yet sad dream. He was my brother, the only sibling that I had in my dream. In my dream, we don't even have mom and dad; just living in the world without parents. He's the only one who take care of me, being my comfortable blanket. Let me borrow his shoulder to cry on. He was so nice to me, I love him so much. Having him as my brother is something heavenly.
But it was all a dream. I could still remember every single detail about it. I was in my room; waking up from my deep sleep. He was the one who woke me up; with his caring, loving voice. He smiled to me as I opened my eyes. He told me that he will take me out for an outing after our breakfast. I got myself up and aiming for the bathroom. I washed up and ready for the outing. Went down to have my breakfast with him. He was there, waiting for me with a smile. We ate while having a little chat.
We went out, it was snowing and totally cold out there. He took me by his hand and we walked along the houses. My foot stopped from walking as I past by a house, I looked at the house; feeling like going in but GD dragged me with him. Somehow I felt something wrong, but I just couldn't figure it out. I tried to get rid the image of the house, but I failed. In my way, I kept on thinking the house and the event that I was supposed to be at. I just know that I need to enter that house. I stopped again making GD stopped from walking too. He asked me what's wrong and I told him that I need to go back to that house. He smiled which was a yes. He let go of my hand, he stood there without moving an inch. I ran back to the house; ringing the bell and waited for the owner to open the door. After waiting for like forever, the door opened. The one that was popping out from the door was...E-Jump?
He looked at me and started to throw tons of questions to me. Something like "What are you doing here?" "What do you want?" "I don't need you, so why are you here?". Maybe I was wrong, I wasn't suppose to be there. He seemed like kicking me out, so I better go before he throws tomatoes or eggs to me. I went back to where GD had left me. And with my surprised, he was still there; standing there while his whole body was trembling like a crazy man. I ran towards his direction, taking off my scarf and wrapped it around his neck. I took his hand and we walked back home. I just couldn't bare to look at him; suffer because of the coldness.
At home, I made him a hot chocolate; turned on the heater and let him rest. I almost cried; looking at him suffering because of me. We were not coming from a rich family, we were just living in a normal family. GD was working to support us both, he was the mother, the father and the brother. All three in one, he must be having a hard time. As I could remember in that dream, he was crying. Leaving dried up tears on his cheeks after a long cry. I was crying along with him; I was comforting him and he did the same to me. We both cried and; he was crying on my chest really hard, he was sobbing and sobbing. I cried on his shoulder, didn't even know why we're crying back then.
He patted on my head, it was like a habit of him patting on my head. He smiled warmly at me, saying that everything will be fine. As long as he is still living on this earth, there will be nothing can hurt me, he will protects me from everything that will hurt me. Believe me, I was totally melt with that. He was concerned about me, loving me more than anything. How I wish I could have him as my brother in the real life. Before he left to his room, he told me that someone will be coming and pay a visit. I wonder who would it be. I couldn't think of anyone.
I opened the door as I heard the door bell rang. The first person I saw was...Yunni?! On her left was Songyee. I was surprised with their appearance. I didn't expect this to be happened. They exactly were standing in front of me; smiling to me. The first thing that came out from her mouth was the word "unnie". I invited them to come in and have a seat. Even though it was a bit awkward for the first time meeting, but I was happy enough to finally meet them. So they were the two who GD meant just now. Yunni and Songyee were so sweet, I was too happy to say anything else other than 'I'm happy". They stayed for quite a while before leaving.
GD came down after the twinie left, he patted on my head again. He smiled sweetly to me; telling me that he loves me more than anything; telling me that he won't leaves me; telling me that he needs me by his side; telling me that not to be sad; telling me that he will always stays by my side. This whole thing just made me jumped into his embrace. He stroked my head gently, leaving me a deep feelings on him. Making me felt like I don't need anyone except for him, only him. Only him; living in the world is enough for me. I love him, more than anything. The one will always be by my side, the one that will protect me from being hurt. GD once said, "In this world, trying to find someone that is important is difficult. Trying to find someone that loves you is even more difficult. If you do find one, treasure; treasure them like I always do to you. Love them, care for them, eventually they will concern and take care of you when I'm not by your side.". I always hate it when he said that he'll leave me. I HATE IT! I don't like it when he said that.
I hate it, but it had already happened. He really left without any goodbye. He left me, how am I going to live when he's gone? How am I going to face the world? Who will I run to when I need someone? Why is he leaving me? I hate him! I hate him! I hate him for leaving me alone... He promised me that he will stay with me, that he will protect me. But why did he broke our promise? He actually died a year ago, the whole things that I was experiencing was all a lie. He wasn't there. I was alone, he wasn't there! I was talking alone, walking alone, smiling alone, eating alone, crying alone. Everything I did was all alone! That was just my imagination, imagination of him being with me the whole time. Maybe I still couldn't face the fact that he was gone. I really couldn't face it. My life is nothing but a miserable life.

This could be the first time I feel like REALLY, REALLY, REALLY having him as my brother. Even though it was just a dream, I really love him. I love him but in a totally different way. I love and care for him. Love him as a sibling but not more. Love him as the one will always stay by my side; comforting me when I am upset. Love him for being a nice and wonderful brother. I love you, Kwon Jiyong...

[p/s: It was just a dream, Ondubu is still my love!^^]

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Friday, December 25, 2009
9:39 AM

Which one should I start with? Hm... Let me see. I'll start with the happy one first.^^ Today, the PMR exam results were coming to attack the kids who sat on the exam. And of course OJ is one of them. But surely he'll get straight ace for those eight subjects and guess what? I AM RIGHT!!!!!! He really got straight ace for his results...^^ I'm happy for him, my twinie... But mostly my son? That was what my friends said. Me+Onew=OJ...LOLL!!!
MINRA!!! You're great! Thanks a lot for the blog edit. I know you're the best.^^ And as the reward, we watched Family Outing! And our stomach were like going to blow in any minutes... Dumb and Dumber were so cute, funny, sweet, adorable and LOLL... Jaesuk imitated GD and Daesung was acting so CUTE~~
AND! I didn't miss my IRIS... TOP-SAMA was so cool and handsome, no doubt...=)
TOMORROW IS CHRISTMAS!!! HAPPY CHRISTMAS TO ALL!!! Specially to KIM YUNNI AND FAITHY~~ Marry Christmas, to both cute twinie...^^ I Love Both of YOU!<3

[p/s: to Nii, Marry Christmas and don't be a naughty dongsaeng. Christmas present from me will be...ANY WISHES that you want from me. I can't really give you anything though, so all I could do is that pray for your happiness and good health...^^]
]p/s: to Faithy, Marry Christmas!!! I'm not too old for you to call unnie, right? haha... But still, I'm used to it somehow. Christmas present for you from me will be...ANY WISHES that you want from me. I'll pray for that so that your wish come true. I'll pray for your happiness and good health...^^]

AGAIN! MARRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!

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Thursday, December 17, 2009
7:07 PM

YUNNI~~~ He just won't talk to me anymore. I tried to reach him, but he just won't pick up. I called him like a million time and I'm getting piss off! What is wrong with him? I was just feeling upset about something. He never takes what I said so seriously, but somehow he did for this time. I said I'm sorry, but he TOTALLY ignored me! I tried so many things but he just won't forgive me. I'm very regret of saying that. But still, I was right. He was just using me after all. I thought that he's my friend, but why didn't he just understand me. I know that he met new friends at myspace, I don't mind that. Just that I'm a bit disappointed with him. Why am I being so touching? It doesn't mean that I like him. I just don't wanna lose him, Putera left and now he wanna do the same? Why did people keep on throwing me away? Sigh~~
Dongsaeng-ah~ What should I do? You know the story, so tell me. What should I do? Just let it be or try again? But seriously, I'm giving up with it already. No more! I won't call him anymore. If he thinks that he's fine with everything, then he''ll find me somehow. That was what my mother said.

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Monday, December 14, 2009
4:27 PM

Happy Birthday, oppa...^^ As usual, you're getting older... May God bless you and be sure that you take care of yourself. You've been sick lately and I'm worry about you. Be strong and don't get sick so easily. You're always my love...*giggles; blushing*
Take care of the rest and yourself, don't force yourself too hard. It's not good for you, be at the same time it is good; so that you can show a lot of things to us. LOL!!!:))
You've been the best all the time and thanks for the gags that you show us. You're always the best!^^
And it's been a year since that I like you... haha^^"" Onew oppa is the BEST! I love you and will always love you. I have a good time after knowing you, oppa. You really make my days pass with just in a seconds...^^
You're always in my heart and in my mind. I never like or love someone like I did to you.^^ A BIG BIG L-O-V-E for you...=]
Saranghamnida...<3

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Saturday, December 12, 2009
12:37 AM

Seungri-ah, Sengil chukahaeyo...
Happy Birthday, Panda...^^
You're getting older but you are still Big Bang's maknae. I love you.
Be the best maknae for your hyungs and don;t stop from acting cute, I love it when you act like that...<3
May God bless you. Be happy and listen to your hyungs. Don't get into troubles like your crazy leader, Jiyong.^^ kekeke...
Be the best and work hard. But don't force yourself too much.
-Eat well
-Sleep well
-Rest well
-Play well
-Dance well
-Sing well
I love you, my Baby Ri...^^

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Tuesday, December 1, 2009
8:17 PM

I HATE her so much! She is not the one that I know 3 years ago. She did change to the WORSE! I HATE her now! She is not Baby anymore... She is not the Baby I know. She is Tot now. I HATE ADA! She made Baby change! Baby even yelled at me. She never yell at me, even once. But now she yelled at me and for the first time I cried because of her. Her yell, the voice that she used, I will never forget. How painful it was. I was enough with everything I have and she add it more. We're not even her best friends anymore. She never thinks about us anymore. All she cares is her friends there. She did this to us, has she even think about our feelings? She's just using us after all for her outing with her friends there. I H.A.T.E. H.E.R!!! I am not your toy, Baby. Or should I call you 'TOT'... I had enough with this. In this 1 year, I had enough with this. First with Nas, second with Nelly and E-Jump, now with Baby. I cried enough this year. I had enough of being a good girl, I had enough on following other peoples' butt, I had enough on being bullied. I am tired, very tired. I don't like this. Why am I the only 1 who has to listen to other? Why can't just they listen to me this time? The same things happened to Hyerim. Why do we need to listen to other? Why can't they just understand us? We are human being and we do have a heart and feelings. I just don't get it. Maybe I was born to be a loser. Maybe this is what the God want to. Maybe this is my punishment for being a bad girl. *sigh*

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It's Me!

Hi, Yuuri's here. I'm a high school student and going to sit on an important exam which I totally hate it! Whoever thinks that I'm a weirdo, go ahead because I am...^^ Being me is hard but I like it...=] At least I know that I love myself... LOLLs~!!! If you really ask me what am I good at? That will definitely be imagination...^^v Keep on with the quote 'Be brave like G the Dragon, have a rocking Tempo,have a beautiful Sol, have a nice D-Lite smile, and with that, you'll have your V.I.C.T.O.R.Y. XD

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» My Name::Chang@Dong Yuuri aka emychan aka SeungYuuRi aka Omi-tan
» Call me::Yuuri ^^
» I am::17 years old
» I was born::December 9 1993
» Love [Husband; Fiancé]::ONEW, SEUNGRI
» Love [Soon to be Husband]::DOOJOON
» Love [Brothers]::KWON JIYONG [G-Dragon], YANG YOSEOB [Yoseob], DONG YOUNGBAE [Taeyang], KIM HEECHUL
» Likes[M]::SHINee, BEAST, BIGBANG, 2 PM, SUJU, MBLAQ, FT Island, CN Blue, An Cafe
» Likes[F]::2NE1, Gummy, Son Dam Bi, G.NA, After School, SNSD, Danger Gang, Kanon Wakeshima




V.I.Ps

--» SHINee vs. Empty [season 2]
--» Foolish Love
--» Tragedic Marriage
--» iBigbang Fansite
--» Stupidbakau
--» SHINee
--» YGBigBang
--» Popseoul
--» Yunni Dongsaeng;
--» Faithy
--» taeyanglover
--» Naomi
--» BoBo
--» E-Jump
--» Kim T
--» Minra
--» Ila
--» Shinae
--» Hyunna

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