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Sunday, January 31, 2010

6:34 PM

This will be a one-shot. I mean a fanfic. It is random since that I just feel like writing. And the title will be "Love".

I came out from the door to find Onew was standing in front of the door with his head looking down on the floor. Once he tilted his head and met my eyes, again, I felt butterflies in my stomach. "Wh..what are you doing here?" I wasn't sure what should I say. "It's morning." "And?" "Let's have some breakfast together." He smiled warmly which made me nod without me knowing that I actually nod to him. "Then let's go." He grabbed my hand and push the door closed.

It was great to have a morning walk with him like I used to have. But this time, it was a bit different. Maybe because our relationship is not just a normal friends relationship, maybe because our relationship changed to a lover relationship. Well I do love him, but it took awhile for me to totally fall in love with him. Not to mention, he's one of the hottest kids in school together with his other 4 best friends. Well basically, I'm not his friend before Key introduced him to me. Yes, it is true that Key is my best friend and will forever be, together with Jaejin; we are the best friends forever.

I broke up with Seungri and he left me with such a hurtful feelings. He was my first love, I love him so much. He was nice, sweet but in the end, he just couldn't except the closeness between me, Key and Jaejin. I always think about them first before anyone else. They meant a lot to me. But Seungri just couldn't except it, so he left. I was hurt back then, but Key introduced me to Onew, Jonghyun, Minho and Taemin; his best friends. They are all so nice and cute.

After a year of being friends with them, I gave each of them a nickname. Jonghyun and Minho are both my oppas, Key is my best friend, Taemin is my ice-cream buddy and Onew? Hm... Used to be my dorky friend but now, he's my true love. The one that I love the most. No doubt.

The morning walk ended at a cupcake shop. Onew took me to a cupcake shop for breakfast? This is something new. "Let's have our breakfast here." He smiled. "Okay." "Are you okay with this?" "Yeah, why wouldn't I?" I laughed. The breakfast was nice and full of love? Haha... *blushing*

He sent me home, and promised me to pick me up in the evening for a walk by the beach.

I was too nervous so I knocked on the door; waiting for my brother to open the door. "What's wrong sweetie?" "Ji oppa, can you help me?" "With what?" "Er..." "Not telling me?" "NO,NO! I will." "Come in then." Jiyong oppa opened the door wider to let me in. "So?" He sat on his bed and patted the seat next to him. "Onew asked me out this evening." "And?" "What...should I wear?" "Ahaha, that's it?" "Well...yeah? What else?" "Nothing. So you want me to help you with your clothing?" I nodded. He always knew I'll find him for things like this.

We went out from Jiyong oppa's room and went to the closet room. "How do you want me to make you look like? Beautiful, cute or sexy?" "OPPA!" "What?" "Nothing." "Haha." "What do you think will suit me well?" I looked at him and gave him the best puppy look. "Cute will be good, since that Onew is cute. That will match. So let me see." Jiyong oppa looked through the clothes and found something for me. "Take this and this and this and this." He gave me and I left to my room to change. I came back to the closet room and let him see. "Do I look good in this?" "Yup!" He smiled. Currently I have a white medium long blouse, a black legging and a white flat as my shoes. "Let's change that to heels." He took a black shinny high heels and placed them in front of me. I wore and wait for him. "I'll tie your hair with a black ribbon." He combed my hair nicely and took just a bit of my hair and tie up with the ribbon. It was a half palm tree hair. I looked myself at the mirror and really satisfied with what he had done. "THANK YOU, JI OPPA!!!" I jumped and hugged him tight, a kiss on the cheek and I left. But before that, I could hear Jiyong oppa said "Have a good time, sweetie~".

Onew came with a white T and a red jacket with a black skinny jeans and colorful high-top sneakers. But the first thing that attracted my attention was the snow cap he wore; the one I gave him. "I like it. thank you." He smiled while pointing at the snow cap. "Ready?" "Deh!" He smiled once again and grabbed my hand. He took me to a beach like he promised me.

I was so happy and the feelings with him and when I was with Seungri were different. So different. The happiness that Onew gave me is way too different from the one I received from Seungri. At this moment, the happiness that Onew gave me wasn't enough like how Seungri used to give me. Maybe still at this very little point, I still love Seungri. Even how hard I tried to get rid of him from my mind, I just couldn't.

I love Onew. I do really love him. But at the same time, I still love Seungri. I just couldn't forget about him. It is way too hard for me. I've try my best, but in the end I fail. I'm sorry, Onew. That's all I could say.

Labels: G-Dragon, Jaejin, Seungri, SHINee

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5:23 PM

It seems like I'm not gonna have my greatest day. He'll leave me, soon. And I still don't have the courage to tell him that I like him. Why do I have to face that almost everyone I love leave me? First that 'mangkuk kuali', then Zatie, next Baby and now OJ too? I just wanted him to just stay here and not leaving me. I don't want him to leave. It feel so bad! I hate it!

I can't imagine my days without him. One year of secretly liking him is a torture for me. By looking at him almost everyday in the past made me happy. Every morning, the first person I saw at school was him. And every day after school, the last person I was was also him. Looking at him from a distance was just enough for me. But that was in the past. That will never happen again. He's leaving me and THAT'S IT!

He'll probably won't come to school on Monday because he'll leave on Tuesday. There's nothing I can do but just a simple wish from where I am for him that already gone. For him to listen to my wish, that is impossible. He won't listen to what I say because I'm not gonna say it to him.

OJ...

I can do nothing now. I can't stop you either. Even though it is hard for me to forget about what had happened in the past year, by just looking at you secretly made me happy for the whole day. I'll always pray for you, keep up the good work, I'm sure you'll have a better live there. Just that, I won't forget about you. You left with such a wonderful memories for me to treasure in my heart. For now, my heart only beats for you...

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3:46 PM

Aish! I don't know why but somehow I feel like killing someone now. But then somehow I feel like hugging someone. But yet again, somehow I feel like laughing...^^ I'm confuse with the feelings I have now. But still, I'm happy...currently.=D

I'm not sure of this but, should I or shouldn't I? Well I'm afraid he'll leave soon. But yet at the same time, I don't really mind because things will still remain the same. Well like I won't be talking to him for sure. But I really hope that I can gain all my courage to even talk to him, even though I've done it once. Do I really mind about him? Aish! Don't wanna think about it anymore.

Hm...cross country was tiring. But it's okay since that me myself willing to suffer for that. HAHAH!!! Got to know one of my junior even though it was kinda awkward for me and for her but still, I enjoyed.^^ With just only this once, I feel lonely for walking alone...HAH! I got caught by someone and that was weird.

Seriously, this is weird. What nonsense am I talking about? This is really weird for me. *sigh* He just made me do random things again... Feeling like SCREAMING OUT LOUD!!!

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11:11 PM

Yayy~~ Happy Birthday, Minzy...^^

It's the 2NE1's maknae's birthday... I'm happy for you, Minzy dongsaeng...

Hopefully this 2010 will be a good year for all of us and Y.O.U....

Daesung's twinie dongsaeng...^^ Minzy is always the cutest girl maknae...

May God bless you, have a great day even though they are still lots of works to do...^^""

But just ignore them for awhile... And LET'S CELEBRATE YOUR BIRTHDAY~~~<3

This is something random, just a normal wishing...

[Eat well, sleep well, play well, dance well, sing well, study well...]

Always love you, little Minzy...=]

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7:36 PM

AT SCHOOL!!! I was happy, heavenly happy the whole morning. Guess what, for the first time ever in my whole life; leaving in this world as a human being; I actually talked to him.^^ And thanks to Minra though, I wouldn't be talking to him if it wasn't Minra. Thanks a lot, my so called 'sister-in-law'. That was before I entered the class. Things went so smoothly and E-Jump for sure making me laughed like mad. LOLL!!! Thanks a lot, buddy. Together with Hyerim we laughed like mad because of his stupid lame joke and imitations.^^ You really made my day, E-Jump.

When I got home at noon, as usual, I ran to my laptop and TADA~~ Faiz was there too. I miss you a lot, hon.<3>

Well, it's normal missing someone, isn't it? haha... My dad came back and he said I'll get the Rock Pit with my sister's help. hehe... But IF she willing to or I can't get it. Hopefully I'll have the chance. Anyways, I'm happy today.^^ SO HAPPY!!! Today will be one of the best day ever in my whole life. And will always pray to the God for a good life for you and me... We'll have a wonderful life.

OH! My hubby~~ He was too cute at Music Bank! I just felt like eating him up. How can he be so cute with a smirk on his face. Well not really cute though, that smirk made him looked H.O.T.!!! LOLL...^^; I can't imagine a life with him... *dreaming+blushing+giggling* Anyways, LOVE LOVE LOVE our tofu leader...<3>

Labels: E-Jump, Faithy, Faiz, Hyerim, Minra, OJ, Onew, Yunni

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8:19 PM

Wah!!! This is just the second week of school and I'm almost die. Having a hard time to finish up my works and all. I just wanted a day off, that's it! A day off with no works to do, just rest and enjoy my day.^^ But that just won't happen. Add math is driving me crazy just like the my chemistry, physics and biology. Aish!

Well at least Hyerim is sitting next to me.^^ I'm glad that she stays and I have my best buddy with me. E-Jump is now officially my neighbor. Even though it was a bit funny at first, but I'm used to it now and actually having fun. But the best thing is that Hyerim lighten up my days with her stupid ridiculous lame jokes...

But when it comes to 'robot'...argh! He is too annoying with his 'drama'. Stop it, will ya. No one wants to see you. Talking about him make me wanna kill him more! Aish... I really shouln't have even say his 'name'.

School is fun but tired. I'm too afraid to sit on my big exam end of this year. I'm not ready yet and don't know when will I be ready for my exam. Hopefully everything will turn out good.^^

Labels: E-Jump, Hyerim, Robot

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