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Thursday, June 10, 2010

2:46 AM

Aish! It is so freaking me out. Oh God, seriously I am so not liking it now. The way I feel right now. I don't think I can take it anymore. I always wanted to stop it but I can't. It is so freaking me out now. What should I do? The days with him was like fun? Maybe. I like it yet I hate it. I like him but yet I hate him. Well, not really hate him. just that I dislike him? Yup! Dislike him. But I know that I like him. Seriously, do anything you want but don't stop my heart from beating for you because "No, thank you. I like feeling this way."
Didn't I show him enough? I mean it was like "I like you" and... He should know that I like him. What I sent to him were so obvious to tell that I like him. But he didn't know. What a moron! -sigh- It is so hard to like someone, isn't it? I should stop, liking him. Stop it now and don't go deeper inside. AHH!!! I am so not liking it now.
Maybe I should stop talking to him and just go with the flow. DO NOT FOLLOW YOUR SOUL! It's a crime, you stupid! -nods- Live on like the old days. Be happy and don't ever think about him. NO MORE~! Love yourself and be FILA~

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4:03 PM

This is something rated. Underage kids be aware.

I had a dream, again. And this time it was something new to me? I don't know. But surely Seungri was there and even the main character in my dream. My version of Strong Baby. Hm...yes, my version of Strong Baby. Strong Baby was written by G-Dragon for Seungri. Yup, Seungri sang that song on Inkigayo, Music Bank, Big Shows and variety shows.

Crack, crack, crack, crack. Crack is a type of drug, a not good type of drug. Maybe Seungri was being drugged because he didn't act like himself. That scene, I can still remember it and it felt so real. Real? It was just a dream.

Maybe I watch too much of Strong Baby which made me drove almost every scene into my dream. Where he went to the club, where he found a girl, where he went for her, where he held her, where he touched her, where he buried his head on her shoulder or more like at the neck, where he sat on the bed, where he waited for the girl to come, where he touched her tights, her hands, her face, her body, where he kissed her lips, her neck.

Those scene were actually popped out during my dream and where Seungri was right there, sitting on the bed but he was just not himself. I don't know but it felt like it was me? I don't know. The scenes were more than the music video. More than ever, more than just touching, kissing. It went to something deeper and something indescribable.

I never had this kind of dream before. It felt weird at first but he just turned me on with the moans that were escaping from his mouth. 'Just me, into my body go'. That was one of the lyrics of the song [Strong Baby]. 'Come a little closer, yeah just like that'. Did it went to deep? I don't know. I can't really remember.

AHH!!! This is driving me nuts! I just don't have the dare to write more. Lets just say that after the kissing and all, you know what they will do, right? So and that's it. That was what had happened to us; me and Seungri. -blushing- This is so weird! AHH!!!

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5:33 PM

Guess what, I love Dolly so much! I love Seungri so much! I love Jiyong so much. So for the combination, G-RI~! I love them, my hubby plus oppa. I don't really mind them being gay though. LOLLs~! Well if they really are which I know they aren't. -sigh- But still, I love them and I am so don't mind them if they wanted to be together. -beam- I know that this might be not so true, but as for me it is so true that Jiyong was actually jealous of Top who got that hug from Seungri instead of him who getting that hug. Haha! Just admit it, oppa.
I miss my honey Faiz~! But then no worries, we'll be meeting up on Thursday. It's a big Yayy~~ I really hope that I'll be able to be here. Haha, I miss her so much! AND! FAITHY~! Where have you been? You're like gone and I haven't been talking to you for quite awhile. TT^TT
I LOVE LEE SEUNGHYUN SO MUCH! I can't get rid of this fever I have. It's been almost 3 months. MY GOD! Seriously, I am so started to forget about Ondubu. -gasp!- No, no, no. I am not going to forget about him that easily. But for cheesecake, I haven't been saying his name and only 'Seungri, Panda, Ri, Maknae Seunghyun, small Seunghyun' and what so his nickname that were coming out from my this little mouth. AHHH!!! But who cares, I care! No way! This can't be, right? I mean, this is so doesn't make any sense! Damn it! Well at least he is still my hubby. Really? Yeah, yeah. Don't ever change it! Just let Seungri be at the place where he should be and that is the second place. Or maybe first? NOOOOO~!!!!! Second!!! And that's it!
Okay, I am so writing random things now. Hahaha!!! I don't care, as long as I'm happy with it. I am? Haha, duh~! Kekeke... I am so nearly buy that CD, but I used that money for something else. -pout- Anyways, I don't mind. ^^ Well at least I love that thing I bought.
KOREAN DREAM~! And I don't care he put that in. I mean the 'motherfu*k' thingy. -shrug- Anything will be just fine because he is G-DRAGON! HAHAHAH~! I am so loving him now. MY OPPA, I LOVE G-DRAGON~! Muahahahah~~~
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Labels: Dolly, Faithy, Faiz, G-Dragon, Onew, Seungri

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6:47 PM

I think I like him, seriously. Who could it be? Hahaha, it's a secret which only Jiyong oppa knows it. Heehee~ The name I set for him is Dolly. But why? I don't know. -shrug- But who cares. -beam- Lately, he's been so nice to me. Maybe that side of him which managed to pull me to his side and all. Just maybe. I don't know. Days past by and that our relationship is still the same. I'm not placing a hope for him though and I don't want too. It will cause me trouble. Believe me, you don't wanna know.
Well, not going to talk about Dolly anymore. Wah! Somehow the Dolly name sound a bit...funny and...weird for a guy. Anyways, I like it to be called Dolly. ^^ Okay, no more Dolly and back to what I wanna talk. Hmm, basically nothing. I am so into G-Ri now which I can't afford myself from stop thinking about them. My mind goes like "G-Ri is cute, G-Ri is sweet, G-ri is Love, G-ri is this and that and all!!!". I am so cannot stop it now. The G-Ri fever hit on me. The Seungri fever never go away and still I feel so into my STRONG BABY (crack, crack, crack, crack. Tonight, you know. Crack, crack, crack, crack). And the "V.I like this" is still playing in my mind. I can't stop it now, I don't know what's going wrong with me.
AHH~! I think I've just took a drug. A drug called crack. A so not good drug for a human being. NOOO~!
Yeah, just like that. Crack, crack, crack, crack. You know how it is. Crack, crack, crack, crack. V.I LIKE THIS.

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6:54 PM

Where did this little maknae gone? Why did they changed him to some mature, hot, sexy man? And he is still a KID! A GUY! NOT A MAN! Come on, don't make him lose his cuteness and the maknae look. Don't ever change him to the strong baby type of man! I mean, he is my strong baby. HAHAHAH... BUT! He's not hot! He's not sexy! He's CUTE! He's a kid with cute attitudes. So don't change him will ya?!

Jiyong! Why did you ever wrote a song like that for him? He can't be a grown up yet! He's still an underage kid! What makes you a good leader when you changed him to that? Well, I can't blame you. YG, he's the maknae. Don't let him do that. I miss this Seungri. The one with cute smile, cute attitude and cute panda eyes. -beam- ^^

Well I guess I'm just missing the cute silly maknae Seungri and not the sexy hot maknae Seungri. But he is still MY BABY~ My God, I really need to overcome this or I'll slowly forget about Ondubu.

ONEW OPPA!!! Where have you been? Why didn't I find you attractive anymore? Why did you gone just like that? Now I really find that Seungri is DAMN GOOD LOOKING. AHH!!! Why can't I stop from thinking about Seungri??? And the "V.I like this" keep on repeating and the "Crack, crack, crack, crack" too. Huhuhu.. =.=

Maybe the Seungri fever hit on me, that's why. But I'll get over it. I'll recover....hopefully.

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12:03 AM

Basically, it's Chinese New Year and it's a YAYY~~~ Having the best time ever, I guess. Spending time with my family but, why did they let my sister worked on the first day of new year??? We were supposed to spend time together. Aish! They should read the resume carefully, my sister is CHINESE! Same goes to me...^^ So she was supposed to have her leave on new year...

Don't wanna talk about it, I'm tired and bored. But since that I'd just done downloading my Big Bang Documentary and SHINee Hello Baby, so I guess my time will just fly in seconds... Hahaha...=] I guess I'm being happy now...

There are so many people that I miss SO MUCH! YUNNI DONGSAENG, FAITHY, FAIZ and EUNHA UNNIE!!! I haven't been talking to them since like forever and I miss them SO MUCH! When will I be able to talk to them? -sigh-

For today, picture of the day will be the one above...^^ Yup, it's Seungri baby... hahaha... I guess I really LIKE him now... Where did my Ondubu gone??? I really need to find him back... Ahaks...^^

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1:20 PM

When I woke up this morning, I found myself was in shock. Keep on blinking my eyes to find if I was really having that dream. I smiled to myself and looked up at my posters and definitely saw my Ondubu but then I looked down and only saw Seungri. Yes, I dream about him. A wonderful loving comfortable dream.

Seungri was so sweet. His attitude and all. There was an event if I'm not mistaken and they asked me to play the piano, but the thing is I can't play. I didn't even know how to play. That thing happened so quickly, I didn't even had the chance to tell them that I can't play but they all left, leaving me alone.

But then suddenly I was at the event. Sitting with my sister and there were many celebrities, but I don't know how me and Seungri were friends. I didn't remember if the other Big Bang was there but Seungri was there. He sat at the next roll. I was too nervous and I don't know what to do. The performance keep on going and soon my turn will come. I stood up and ran away from the hall, ran out along the hallway until I reached out from the building.

Seungri was following me. I didn;t notice him until I heard him calling me. I stopped and sat on the floor; crying. He asked me why, but my crying made me couldn't speak. I was sobbing and he pull me and embraced me, patted on my head which really calm me a lot. I told him about it, and for my surprised, he said it was nothing to be worried about. If I can't play, then don't. He said he'll handle it for me. He stroked my back and kissed my forehead. He smiled warmly and helped me up. He held my hand and brought me back to the hall.

On the way back, he said he'll handle it for me so I don't have to be worried about it. I went back to my seat and then my sister told me that SHINee just performed. I was like "WHAT THE FISH?!" I missed their performance! I was disappointed, the my dad popped out from nowhere. He told me to go over to Seungri, he asked me to sit next to him, so I just followed. I sat next to him and pouted. He talked to me and we laughed. So happy.

But then I can't really remember anything. I woke up and duh, the dream was over. I'm happy, my Baby Ri was CUTEE!!! I guess this will be one of the best dream. ^^

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1:13 AM

I know I'm acting like a fool now. But there's nothing I could do. For this whole thing to happened so suddenly really annoyed me. I mean, what was he thinking? I'm not some slave that you can commend me with your stupid things! This really made me pissed off! I can't stand it anymore, I wanna leave...SOON! No more playing stupid games with him. No more with his stupid attitude. And that's it! I'm leaving for Pete's sake!

I knocked on the door, waiting for him to answer. But no answer in return. Another knock but a bit harder yet, no answer. Aish! Another one last knock but 50% harder and, "Come in". FINALLY! After waiting for like forever, he let me in. "SO, what brings you here?" "Can we have a talk?" "We're having a talk now, aren't we?" "Can we cut off the deal?" "Cut off the deal?" I nodded. No respond from him. I guess he was thinking about it more than ten times.

I left his room since that he made me looked like a statue there. He didn't give me any answer. Seriously, I can't read his mind. He used to be kind but now, no more kindness to me. What a jerk! "YAH!" I turned to his room and "What?" "You can't cut off the deal as long as I say no." "But why?" "That's my answer, bye for now. And close the door properly, you didn't just now." "Yah!" "I wanna have some nap, so you may out from my room." That's it! He just kicked me off like that and covered himself with the blanket.

MY GOD! "YAH, CHOI SEUNGHYUN!" My mind really did screamed out. Why can't I just have a nice deal with him? He did promised my dad to take care of me, but not in this way! Fine, maybe he let me stay here, even have a proper meal and all. That is nice, but the way he treats me like slave, I just couldn't let him! He has to pay for it! And I just know what to do now...hehehe...

Minutes later, I opened the door to his room slowly without making any cracking sound. I could see him sleeping soundly and maybe...cute? Aish! Why am I even thinking about that?! Get rid of it! But to tell you the truth, he really does look cute with that face, so peaceful. I let out a small sigh for the fact that I actually kinda...er...like him.

No matter what! Still, Imma gonna continue with my plan. Hehehe... I slowly walked towards Seunghyun's bed and smile evilly. "You know what, imma gonna make you regret with your answer. Hehe" I was holding a tape and planned on letting him had an unforgettable wax experience. He was still sleeping and not know that I was right in front of him. I pull his blanket and just yet, he pull up back. Aish! Again, I pull his blanket slowly. Now the blanket was removed. "YES! My plan is gonna work." I smirked.

I pull the tape as long as I could and cut it. Hehe, this is gonna be FUN! I screamed in joy; in my mind. But then just when I about to paste it on his leg, "What are you doing? With that?" He looked at me with gloomy eyes. "Er...Nothing? Haha..." That awkward laugh, he will surely know my dirty plan. "I'll go and cook for your dinner." I tried to escape from him but then he held my wrist and pull me, making me fall on the bed. "Ya...Yah! Wh..What are you doing...HUH?!" "Did I told you to go?" "Deh?" Oh God, please don't do this to me. Aish! "Ya...Yah! Get off me, you monkey!" I tried to push him but he's a guy, tsk tsk...too strong for me. He looked at me continuously which made me felt so awkward and blush. Oh please someone, anyone. This was way too much.

'BANG!' The door opened, Seungri looked at us, the awkward position and all. "Er...Sorry." He then closed the door and even went out which left the loud 'BANG' sound of the main door. Aish! Suengri is really a pabo to the power of 3; means pabo pabo pabo! Why did he left?! Now Seunghyun's attention is all on me. He came closer and really looked into my eyes, which made me drawn in them. Kisses were replaced by the stares. I closed my eyes and go with the flow. The kisses that really made me drawn. He stopped and looked at me.

"You know the reason I don't want you to go is because..." He stopped. "You...love...me?" He nodded. For Pete's sake, I actually saw him blushing. Was he for real? I smiled, so I'm not experiencing an one sided love. "Aish! You're making blushing!" He sat up and hid his face. Aw... That was so cute of him. I sat up after him, poke the side of his arm. He dragged his hand but then. "Come on, don't be shy. Hahah!" I laughed. "I love you too, so we're equal." He looked at me in shocked. "You love me??" "Is there any problem with that?" "No, I mean..." "You don't have to, it's been awhile since I like you. But just that I don't know what to do." "But why are you leaving?" "Hm...because I can't face you anymore and your nonsense attitude." "But then you like me? Nonsense attitude but still love me." He smirked.

Well, my confession mission's DONE! "Yah." "Deh?" "Can I continue?" "With what?" "The last thing I did." "Your nap?" "No, not that one." "Then?" Huh! Continue with the kiss??? "PERVERT!!!"

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6:34 PM

This will be a one-shot. I mean a fanfic. It is random since that I just feel like writing. And the title will be "Love".

I came out from the door to find Onew was standing in front of the door with his head looking down on the floor. Once he tilted his head and met my eyes, again, I felt butterflies in my stomach. "Wh..what are you doing here?" I wasn't sure what should I say. "It's morning." "And?" "Let's have some breakfast together." He smiled warmly which made me nod without me knowing that I actually nod to him. "Then let's go." He grabbed my hand and push the door closed.

It was great to have a morning walk with him like I used to have. But this time, it was a bit different. Maybe because our relationship is not just a normal friends relationship, maybe because our relationship changed to a lover relationship. Well I do love him, but it took awhile for me to totally fall in love with him. Not to mention, he's one of the hottest kids in school together with his other 4 best friends. Well basically, I'm not his friend before Key introduced him to me. Yes, it is true that Key is my best friend and will forever be, together with Jaejin; we are the best friends forever.

I broke up with Seungri and he left me with such a hurtful feelings. He was my first love, I love him so much. He was nice, sweet but in the end, he just couldn't except the closeness between me, Key and Jaejin. I always think about them first before anyone else. They meant a lot to me. But Seungri just couldn't except it, so he left. I was hurt back then, but Key introduced me to Onew, Jonghyun, Minho and Taemin; his best friends. They are all so nice and cute.

After a year of being friends with them, I gave each of them a nickname. Jonghyun and Minho are both my oppas, Key is my best friend, Taemin is my ice-cream buddy and Onew? Hm... Used to be my dorky friend but now, he's my true love. The one that I love the most. No doubt.

The morning walk ended at a cupcake shop. Onew took me to a cupcake shop for breakfast? This is something new. "Let's have our breakfast here." He smiled. "Okay." "Are you okay with this?" "Yeah, why wouldn't I?" I laughed. The breakfast was nice and full of love? Haha... *blushing*

He sent me home, and promised me to pick me up in the evening for a walk by the beach.

I was too nervous so I knocked on the door; waiting for my brother to open the door. "What's wrong sweetie?" "Ji oppa, can you help me?" "With what?" "Er..." "Not telling me?" "NO,NO! I will." "Come in then." Jiyong oppa opened the door wider to let me in. "So?" He sat on his bed and patted the seat next to him. "Onew asked me out this evening." "And?" "What...should I wear?" "Ahaha, that's it?" "Well...yeah? What else?" "Nothing. So you want me to help you with your clothing?" I nodded. He always knew I'll find him for things like this.

We went out from Jiyong oppa's room and went to the closet room. "How do you want me to make you look like? Beautiful, cute or sexy?" "OPPA!" "What?" "Nothing." "Haha." "What do you think will suit me well?" I looked at him and gave him the best puppy look. "Cute will be good, since that Onew is cute. That will match. So let me see." Jiyong oppa looked through the clothes and found something for me. "Take this and this and this and this." He gave me and I left to my room to change. I came back to the closet room and let him see. "Do I look good in this?" "Yup!" He smiled. Currently I have a white medium long blouse, a black legging and a white flat as my shoes. "Let's change that to heels." He took a black shinny high heels and placed them in front of me. I wore and wait for him. "I'll tie your hair with a black ribbon." He combed my hair nicely and took just a bit of my hair and tie up with the ribbon. It was a half palm tree hair. I looked myself at the mirror and really satisfied with what he had done. "THANK YOU, JI OPPA!!!" I jumped and hugged him tight, a kiss on the cheek and I left. But before that, I could hear Jiyong oppa said "Have a good time, sweetie~".

Onew came with a white T and a red jacket with a black skinny jeans and colorful high-top sneakers. But the first thing that attracted my attention was the snow cap he wore; the one I gave him. "I like it. thank you." He smiled while pointing at the snow cap. "Ready?" "Deh!" He smiled once again and grabbed my hand. He took me to a beach like he promised me.

I was so happy and the feelings with him and when I was with Seungri were different. So different. The happiness that Onew gave me is way too different from the one I received from Seungri. At this moment, the happiness that Onew gave me wasn't enough like how Seungri used to give me. Maybe still at this very little point, I still love Seungri. Even how hard I tried to get rid of him from my mind, I just couldn't.

I love Onew. I do really love him. But at the same time, I still love Seungri. I just couldn't forget about him. It is way too hard for me. I've try my best, but in the end I fail. I'm sorry, Onew. That's all I could say.

Labels: G-Dragon, Jaejin, Seungri, SHINee

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12:37 AM

Seungri-ah, Sengil chukahaeyo...

Happy Birthday, Panda...^^

You're getting older but you are still Big Bang's maknae. I love you.
Be the best maknae for your hyungs and don;t stop from acting cute, I love it when you act like that...<3

May God bless you. Be happy and listen to your hyungs. Don't get into troubles like your crazy leader, Jiyong.^^ kekeke...

Be the best and work hard. But don't force yourself too much.

-Eat well

-Sleep well

-Rest well

-Play well

-Dance well

-Sing well

I love you, my Baby Ri...^^

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