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Thursday, May 13, 2010

7:04 PM

Why do I always have a friend problem? Hm... It's tiring, somehow. But I think I can't complain about it, maybe this is what the God wanted me to go through. I have to be strong so that I can continue with my life. -nods- But I don't think that I can take it anymore. I'm tired, VERY tired. I just wanted a happy life, going to school and have fun while study.

It's okay, it's okay. Everything's gonna be alright. No worries. ^^ You have to be strong for yourself. Don't let people look down on you. Try to get rid of the problems that are hunting you. Like what Jiyong oppa did. If he can do it, why can't you. Yup! I have to live up with that. And always live up with the quote that you made, you have to be strong like Jiyong oppa. He went through a lot and he still can be the best. The things that he went through were whole lot harder than yours. So if Jiyong oppa can fight with it, you can do it too.

That's right! You have to focus on your study, for just couple of months. You have to fight till the end. That is us, the Warriors! Don't cry, don't you ever cry again because if you cry, you'll be a loser and Mister Demon Trash said that "The word loser doesn't even live in the YA-HA Family's dictionary."

I have to work hard like my oppas. Hard work that made them the BEST! ^^ And I have to be smart like my new sensei. =) I must fall in love with Chemistry. I have to, for my future. I have to be strong!

Be brave like G the Dragon, have a rocking Tempo, have a beautiful Sol, have a nice D-Lite smile, and with that, you'll get your V.I.C.T.O.R.Y~

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11:53 PM

Kwon Jiyong. I love you, freaking in love with you.

Kwon Jiyong, Kwon Jiyong and Kwon Jiyong.

Kwon Jiyong? Who is Kwon Jiyong?

Kwon Jiyong is G-Dragon/GD.

G-Dragon? Who is G-Dragon?

G-Dragon is the leader of the boy band BIG BANG.

Why do I love Kwon Jiyong?

Because he is:

-Good looking/Hot/Sexy

-Cute/Adorable/Pretty

-The best songwriter

-The best brother

-The best leader

-Kind

-Sweet

-Funny

-Comfortable

-Understanding

-L.O.V.E.

And that's why I love Kwon Jiyong. No matter what, he is the best oppa ever~! No matter what people do to him, I'll support him till the end. Yup! I will because I love him.

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8:02 AM

This is a signature and a message by G-Dragon that was include in the 'Shine A Light' DVD. The message goes like this:

VIP…
벌써 많은 시간이 지났지만
앞으로 함께 해나갈 일들이 더욱 많기에!
울지말고 강해져라 그리고 다 같이 웃어라

VIP…
Although a lot of time has passed already
Let’s continue to do many more things together in the future!
Don’t cry, be strong and let’s laugh together.

VIP won't cry, oppa. We love you so much~!

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5:33 PM

Guess what, I love Dolly so much! I love Seungri so much! I love Jiyong so much. So for the combination, G-RI~! I love them, my hubby plus oppa. I don't really mind them being gay though. LOLLs~! Well if they really are which I know they aren't. -sigh- But still, I love them and I am so don't mind them if they wanted to be together. -beam- I know that this might be not so true, but as for me it is so true that Jiyong was actually jealous of Top who got that hug from Seungri instead of him who getting that hug. Haha! Just admit it, oppa.
I miss my honey Faiz~! But then no worries, we'll be meeting up on Thursday. It's a big Yayy~~ I really hope that I'll be able to be here. Haha, I miss her so much! AND! FAITHY~! Where have you been? You're like gone and I haven't been talking to you for quite awhile. TT^TT
I LOVE LEE SEUNGHYUN SO MUCH! I can't get rid of this fever I have. It's been almost 3 months. MY GOD! Seriously, I am so started to forget about Ondubu. -gasp!- No, no, no. I am not going to forget about him that easily. But for cheesecake, I haven't been saying his name and only 'Seungri, Panda, Ri, Maknae Seunghyun, small Seunghyun' and what so his nickname that were coming out from my this little mouth. AHHH!!! But who cares, I care! No way! This can't be, right? I mean, this is so doesn't make any sense! Damn it! Well at least he is still my hubby. Really? Yeah, yeah. Don't ever change it! Just let Seungri be at the place where he should be and that is the second place. Or maybe first? NOOOOO~!!!!! Second!!! And that's it!
Okay, I am so writing random things now. Hahaha!!! I don't care, as long as I'm happy with it. I am? Haha, duh~! Kekeke... I am so nearly buy that CD, but I used that money for something else. -pout- Anyways, I don't mind. ^^ Well at least I love that thing I bought.
KOREAN DREAM~! And I don't care he put that in. I mean the 'motherfu*k' thingy. -shrug- Anything will be just fine because he is G-DRAGON! HAHAHAH~! I am so loving him now. MY OPPA, I LOVE G-DRAGON~! Muahahahah~~~
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Labels: Dolly, Faithy, Faiz, G-Dragon, Onew, Seungri

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6:47 PM

I think I like him, seriously. Who could it be? Hahaha, it's a secret which only Jiyong oppa knows it. Heehee~ The name I set for him is Dolly. But why? I don't know. -shrug- But who cares. -beam- Lately, he's been so nice to me. Maybe that side of him which managed to pull me to his side and all. Just maybe. I don't know. Days past by and that our relationship is still the same. I'm not placing a hope for him though and I don't want too. It will cause me trouble. Believe me, you don't wanna know.
Well, not going to talk about Dolly anymore. Wah! Somehow the Dolly name sound a bit...funny and...weird for a guy. Anyways, I like it to be called Dolly. ^^ Okay, no more Dolly and back to what I wanna talk. Hmm, basically nothing. I am so into G-Ri now which I can't afford myself from stop thinking about them. My mind goes like "G-Ri is cute, G-Ri is sweet, G-ri is Love, G-ri is this and that and all!!!". I am so cannot stop it now. The G-Ri fever hit on me. The Seungri fever never go away and still I feel so into my STRONG BABY (crack, crack, crack, crack. Tonight, you know. Crack, crack, crack, crack). And the "V.I like this" is still playing in my mind. I can't stop it now, I don't know what's going wrong with me.
AHH~! I think I've just took a drug. A drug called crack. A so not good drug for a human being. NOOO~!
Yeah, just like that. Crack, crack, crack, crack. You know how it is. Crack, crack, crack, crack. V.I LIKE THIS.

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6:34 PM

This will be a one-shot. I mean a fanfic. It is random since that I just feel like writing. And the title will be "Love".

I came out from the door to find Onew was standing in front of the door with his head looking down on the floor. Once he tilted his head and met my eyes, again, I felt butterflies in my stomach. "Wh..what are you doing here?" I wasn't sure what should I say. "It's morning." "And?" "Let's have some breakfast together." He smiled warmly which made me nod without me knowing that I actually nod to him. "Then let's go." He grabbed my hand and push the door closed.

It was great to have a morning walk with him like I used to have. But this time, it was a bit different. Maybe because our relationship is not just a normal friends relationship, maybe because our relationship changed to a lover relationship. Well I do love him, but it took awhile for me to totally fall in love with him. Not to mention, he's one of the hottest kids in school together with his other 4 best friends. Well basically, I'm not his friend before Key introduced him to me. Yes, it is true that Key is my best friend and will forever be, together with Jaejin; we are the best friends forever.

I broke up with Seungri and he left me with such a hurtful feelings. He was my first love, I love him so much. He was nice, sweet but in the end, he just couldn't except the closeness between me, Key and Jaejin. I always think about them first before anyone else. They meant a lot to me. But Seungri just couldn't except it, so he left. I was hurt back then, but Key introduced me to Onew, Jonghyun, Minho and Taemin; his best friends. They are all so nice and cute.

After a year of being friends with them, I gave each of them a nickname. Jonghyun and Minho are both my oppas, Key is my best friend, Taemin is my ice-cream buddy and Onew? Hm... Used to be my dorky friend but now, he's my true love. The one that I love the most. No doubt.

The morning walk ended at a cupcake shop. Onew took me to a cupcake shop for breakfast? This is something new. "Let's have our breakfast here." He smiled. "Okay." "Are you okay with this?" "Yeah, why wouldn't I?" I laughed. The breakfast was nice and full of love? Haha... *blushing*

He sent me home, and promised me to pick me up in the evening for a walk by the beach.

I was too nervous so I knocked on the door; waiting for my brother to open the door. "What's wrong sweetie?" "Ji oppa, can you help me?" "With what?" "Er..." "Not telling me?" "NO,NO! I will." "Come in then." Jiyong oppa opened the door wider to let me in. "So?" He sat on his bed and patted the seat next to him. "Onew asked me out this evening." "And?" "What...should I wear?" "Ahaha, that's it?" "Well...yeah? What else?" "Nothing. So you want me to help you with your clothing?" I nodded. He always knew I'll find him for things like this.

We went out from Jiyong oppa's room and went to the closet room. "How do you want me to make you look like? Beautiful, cute or sexy?" "OPPA!" "What?" "Nothing." "Haha." "What do you think will suit me well?" I looked at him and gave him the best puppy look. "Cute will be good, since that Onew is cute. That will match. So let me see." Jiyong oppa looked through the clothes and found something for me. "Take this and this and this and this." He gave me and I left to my room to change. I came back to the closet room and let him see. "Do I look good in this?" "Yup!" He smiled. Currently I have a white medium long blouse, a black legging and a white flat as my shoes. "Let's change that to heels." He took a black shinny high heels and placed them in front of me. I wore and wait for him. "I'll tie your hair with a black ribbon." He combed my hair nicely and took just a bit of my hair and tie up with the ribbon. It was a half palm tree hair. I looked myself at the mirror and really satisfied with what he had done. "THANK YOU, JI OPPA!!!" I jumped and hugged him tight, a kiss on the cheek and I left. But before that, I could hear Jiyong oppa said "Have a good time, sweetie~".

Onew came with a white T and a red jacket with a black skinny jeans and colorful high-top sneakers. But the first thing that attracted my attention was the snow cap he wore; the one I gave him. "I like it. thank you." He smiled while pointing at the snow cap. "Ready?" "Deh!" He smiled once again and grabbed my hand. He took me to a beach like he promised me.

I was so happy and the feelings with him and when I was with Seungri were different. So different. The happiness that Onew gave me is way too different from the one I received from Seungri. At this moment, the happiness that Onew gave me wasn't enough like how Seungri used to give me. Maybe still at this very little point, I still love Seungri. Even how hard I tried to get rid of him from my mind, I just couldn't.

I love Onew. I do really love him. But at the same time, I still love Seungri. I just couldn't forget about him. It is way too hard for me. I've try my best, but in the end I fail. I'm sorry, Onew. That's all I could say.

Labels: G-Dragon, Jaejin, Seungri, SHINee

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7:28 PM

He came to me with his both eyes were totally loaded with salted tears; falling down from his eyes, non-stop. The tears that were falling from his eyes all the way to his chin were bitter; the feelings were bitter. The reason was still a secret. He just made me cried along with him like he did before. "It was too painful; too hard; too bitter. I can't stand it anymore, I don't wanna know anything about it. Those word were too harsh!" Then it all went into a blankness. What was that? I had no ideas about it. He stopped with his tears; laughing like mad. I was too confused. He laughed while his tears were still running out from his eyes. What was that? I really confused. He broke the hug; clinging on the collar of my shirt; looking at me like he was going to eat me. He laughed; an evil, scary laugh. He dropped his forehead on my shoulder, started to cry again.

"It was way too hard for me to handle it. No more, stop it, I don't wanna know! I'm a pathetic creature. Haha, it's funny, isn't it?" He said; crying, laughing, smirking. He was so different. So different from the one that I know. He then stopped; stopped from everything that he was doing just now. He tilted his head and looked at me; emotionless. He stared at me, which making me cried. He wiped the tears that were following down on my cheeks, he hugged me back. Patting on my head gentle, stroking my back smoothly.

"I'm sorry." That was the only word that came out from his mouth. I closed my eyes; hugging him back. The minute I opened my eyes, he was gone. Nowhere could be seen from my eyes, missing from the embrace. Totally gone. Where could he be? I called him "oppa!". But I heard nothing in returned. Again, that was all a lie. Again, what I was doing was all alone. AGAIN AND AGAIN!

I woke up, it was just a dream again. The time was around 3 in the morning. I went back to sleep. Really, I started to hate this dream. Keep on coming and go. Why was he feeling so sad in my dream? I just couldn't get it.

I heard noises, laughing and cheering. The feeling were happy. I could feel myself smiling. I opened my eyes, I found a big cake and lots of people. Some of the people that I know and some of the people that I don't know. The one who was standing beside me was...Minho?? All I could think of was "Why is SHINee's Minho is here? Onew and the rest were there too. They were singing a birthday song. OH YEAH! We have the same date of birth. But why are they celebrating my birthday too? The song ended with clapping hands.

I woke up, it was just a dream. Why am I having weird dream these days? Very weird, I don't like it! The dreams were happy and sad. I just don't like it, I felt like something is wrong. REALLY WRONG! I am happy now, but still. I don't really feel good with this.

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9:37 PM

When I woke up, I found out that a smile was drawn on my face yet a drop of tear leaving one side of my eyes. I never felt this happy and this sad before, this could be the first time. I looked straight up at my closet; where my SHINee's, Big Bang's and FT Island's poster were placing on the side of my closet. My eyes caught at GD. He appeared in my dream; a wonderful, happy, beautiful, cute, sweet, comfortable yet sad dream. He was my brother, the only sibling that I had in my dream. In my dream, we don't even have mom and dad; just living in the world without parents. He's the only one who take care of me, being my comfortable blanket. Let me borrow his shoulder to cry on. He was so nice to me, I love him so much. Having him as my brother is something heavenly.

But it was all a dream. I could still remember every single detail about it. I was in my room; waking up from my deep sleep. He was the one who woke me up; with his caring, loving voice. He smiled to me as I opened my eyes. He told me that he will take me out for an outing after our breakfast. I got myself up and aiming for the bathroom. I washed up and ready for the outing. Went down to have my breakfast with him. He was there, waiting for me with a smile. We ate while having a little chat.

We went out, it was snowing and totally cold out there. He took me by his hand and we walked along the houses. My foot stopped from walking as I past by a house, I looked at the house; feeling like going in but GD dragged me with him. Somehow I felt something wrong, but I just couldn't figure it out. I tried to get rid the image of the house, but I failed. In my way, I kept on thinking the house and the event that I was supposed to be at. I just know that I need to enter that house. I stopped again making GD stopped from walking too. He asked me what's wrong and I told him that I need to go back to that house. He smiled which was a yes. He let go of my hand, he stood there without moving an inch. I ran back to the house; ringing the bell and waited for the owner to open the door. After waiting for like forever, the door opened. The one that was popping out from the door was...E-Jump?

He looked at me and started to throw tons of questions to me. Something like "What are you doing here?" "What do you want?" "I don't need you, so why are you here?". Maybe I was wrong, I wasn't suppose to be there. He seemed like kicking me out, so I better go before he throws tomatoes or eggs to me. I went back to where GD had left me. And with my surprised, he was still there; standing there while his whole body was trembling like a crazy man. I ran towards his direction, taking off my scarf and wrapped it around his neck. I took his hand and we walked back home. I just couldn't bare to look at him; suffer because of the coldness.

At home, I made him a hot chocolate; turned on the heater and let him rest. I almost cried; looking at him suffering because of me. We were not coming from a rich family, we were just living in a normal family. GD was working to support us both, he was the mother, the father and the brother. All three in one, he must be having a hard time. As I could remember in that dream, he was crying. Leaving dried up tears on his cheeks after a long cry. I was crying along with him; I was comforting him and he did the same to me. We both cried and; he was crying on my chest really hard, he was sobbing and sobbing. I cried on his shoulder, didn't even know why we're crying back then.

He patted on my head, it was like a habit of him patting on my head. He smiled warmly at me, saying that everything will be fine. As long as he is still living on this earth, there will be nothing can hurt me, he will protects me from everything that will hurt me. Believe me, I was totally melt with that. He was concerned about me, loving me more than anything. How I wish I could have him as my brother in the real life. Before he left to his room, he told me that someone will be coming and pay a visit. I wonder who would it be. I couldn't think of anyone.

I opened the door as I heard the door bell rang. The first person I saw was...Yunni?! On her left was Songyee. I was surprised with their appearance. I didn't expect this to be happened. They exactly were standing in front of me; smiling to me. The first thing that came out from her mouth was the word "unnie". I invited them to come in and have a seat. Even though it was a bit awkward for the first time meeting, but I was happy enough to finally meet them. So they were the two who GD meant just now. Yunni and Songyee were so sweet, I was too happy to say anything else other than 'I'm happy". They stayed for quite a while before leaving.

GD came down after the twinie left, he patted on my head again. He smiled sweetly to me; telling me that he loves me more than anything; telling me that he won't leaves me; telling me that he needs me by his side; telling me that not to be sad; telling me that he will always stays by my side. This whole thing just made me jumped into his embrace. He stroked my head gently, leaving me a deep feelings on him. Making me felt like I don't need anyone except for him, only him. Only him; living in the world is enough for me. I love him, more than anything. The one will always be by my side, the one that will protect me from being hurt. GD once said, "In this world, trying to find someone that is important is difficult. Trying to find someone that loves you is even more difficult. If you do find one, treasure; treasure them like I always do to you. Love them, care for them, eventually they will concern and take care of you when I'm not by your side.". I always hate it when he said that he'll leave me. I HATE IT! I don't like it when he said that.

I hate it, but it had already happened. He really left without any goodbye. He left me, how am I going to live when he's gone? How am I going to face the world? Who will I run to when I need someone? Why is he leaving me? I hate him! I hate him! I hate him for leaving me alone... He promised me that he will stay with me, that he will protect me. But why did he broke our promise? He actually died a year ago, the whole things that I was experiencing was all a lie. He wasn't there. I was alone, he wasn't there! I was talking alone, walking alone, smiling alone, eating alone, crying alone. Everything I did was all alone! That was just my imagination, imagination of him being with me the whole time. Maybe I still couldn't face the fact that he was gone. I really couldn't face it. My life is nothing but a miserable life.

This could be the first time I feel like REALLY, REALLY, REALLY having him as my brother. Even though it was just a dream, I really love him. I love him but in a totally different way. I love and care for him. Love him as a sibling but not more. Love him as the one will always stay by my side; comforting me when I am upset. Love him for being a nice and wonderful brother. I love you, Kwon Jiyong...

[p/s: It was just a dream, Ondubu is still my love!^^]

Labels: E-Jump, Faithy, G-Dragon, Yunni

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10:44 AM

He is crazy after all... haha:)) I didn't expect him to bring Gaho along. But that was so cute. He really loves his dog; Gaho. He brings him everywhere he goes and even in his music video. And he even won the MAMA Awards for the Album of the Year. I thought that he'll bring Gaho on stage... haha..^^" but he didn't.
Good job, Jiyong oppa and 2NE1 too for winning the Song of the Year.=]... Gaho has grown bigger, when the first time I saw him, he was just a little puppy. But now, Jiyong must be giving him a lot of food. LOL!!
The YG Family came but the SM Town didn't. I really hope to see SHINee there since that ONEW IS BACK!!! Onew oppa is back, back, back...^^ I'm happy that he was still smiling when he performed Ring Ding Dong at Music Core... Anyways, hopefully they'll attend other music awards.^^v

Labels: 2NE1), G-Dragon, MAMA Awards, Onew, YG Family(Gaho

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7:08 PM

Sigh~ The first week of exam and I am totally worn out! So tired and sleepy and lack of energy... The first paper on Wednesday and I think that I can at least score my paper, but not really sure. My second paper was my English language and I felt happy when I wrote my essay. I think that teacher Zaleha knows that I love writing love stories... Uhm *cough* lol:)) I wrote about me and Dara, hahaha... and I'm the guy, haha, funny... But still, I think that Hyerim's story is the best. It's about alien and she fell in love with the alien but in the end, it was just a dream. And for today, my History paper and don't ask about it. It's hard and I can't really answer all, only the essay part but still, the qustions made me wanna SCREAM!!
Just two more weeks to go and I'm done. But for next year, maybe I won't have the time for entertainment. I don't wanna sit for my SPM exam! But it's for my own good, I need to do it even though I don't want. I need to study hard for good results. Yup, need to be a good girl.. lol:))

Today's Music Bank was awesome! Onew looked ADORABLE and Key looked cool... They tried to make Onew looks mature, but in the end they failed. Onew still as cute as he used to be and always be.^^ AND they even won! Yayy~~ Even SS501 lost to them. Good job, boys...

I wanna go to GD's Shine A Light concert! I wanna go, wanna go... But I can't get the ticket for sure and how am I supposed to go? By what? Ella unnie must be dying to go. She LOVES GD and I know she'll find a way to go but I also know in the end she can't go. The ticket was sold out for the first concert and now for the second concert I know that it will be the same. Never mind, just imagine I'm there watching him perform... Good luck, GD...^^

Labels: Ella unnie, G-Dragon, Hyerim, Pn. Zaleha, SHINee (Onew;Key), SS501

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12:36 AM

Cute GD and Gaho... I wish I could have a dog like that. Both look adorable. Gaho becomes bigger, maybe GD feed him too much. hehe..=p
But still, Gaho is the cutest dog I've ever see. You need to be good to GD, he gives you a lot of attention and now even you are porpular. Where ever GD is, you'll be there too right, Gaho?
Sleep well and sweet dreams...^0^

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11:42 AM

I can't tell how cute they are. But GD and Gaho are just so cute.

I wish I could have a dog like GD's. Hyerim loves GD's dog and always like its neck... lol^^
And I know that Hyerim will scream like mad after seeing this picture. I just know she will because I screamed like that too... hehe... Sleep well...^^

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