Yuuri's Territory

'Dear, please' Day~

2011-01-28T16:13:00.005+08:00

Dear you, please say hi to me.
Dear E-Jump, please love Beast more.
Dear SYSTM, please be happy.
Dear me, please behave yourself.
Dear YA-HA, please stay forever.
Dear family, please stay healthy.
Dear Allah, please bless me.
Dear SPM results, please be good.

Dear Facebook, please kick my ass. Loools!
Dear blog, please stay alive.
Dear Kpop. please make me smile.

Dear BEAST, please come here again.
Dear Doojoonie, please love me.
Dear Doojoonie, please married Yang Yoseob. ^^
Dear Yang Seob, please give me your cheeks. -pinches your cheeks-
Dear Yang Seob, please accept Doojoonie as your husband. ^^
Dear Dooseob, please stay forever because I love you and you.
Dear Hyunseungie, please give me your pretty face.
Dear Yong Junnie, please rap for me.
Dear Kiki, please be the dumbKwang forever.

Dear SHINee, please appear on TV more.
Dear Ondubu, please confess your love to me.
Dear Taeminie, please grow up fast.

Dear Big Bang, please comeback.
Dear G-Dragon, please keep on making awesome musics.
Dear Seungri, please be the panda for me.

Dear JoKwon, please keep on with your ssanti.

Dear Smart Reader Kids, please listen to me.

Dear B2R Forum, please stay alive and I'll keep on donating.
Dear B2STLY SUBBERS, please subs the videos quickly because I can't wait anymore. Hehehe

Dear Ika sweetie, please stay by my side.
Dear Faith, please dance with me! HAHAHA
Dear Jaemin, please look at my application for the reviewer position.
Dear Naomi, please love Key more than Jonghyun.
Dear Faiz honey, please stay away from my Doojoonie. Lollls
Dear Bulat, please be my teacher.
Dear friends, please adore me.

Dear Seoul, please wait for me.
Dear LG Lollipop, please wait for a little while.
Dear BEAST's CDs, please wait for me to buy you.
Dear B2UTIES, please keep on supporting B2ST!
Dear fanfic, please produce more good writers.
Dear everyone, please take good care of me.

So BEAST!

2010-10-17T14:28:00.004+08:00

It's been a year. Time does fly in seconds. I thought I've just started to love them. -sighs- So, HAPPY BIRTHDAY, my babies~ BEAST's first anniversary. BEAST is one year old kid. Kekeke. Ahhh, so cute~ -giggles- In this one year, they really improve a lot and they work so hard for the comeback and the tour around Asia and everything. They are just awesome. They changed a lot! From B2ST to the VERY B2ST! JJANG!

The one that really improve a lot will be the MAKNAE! Dongwoonie did a good job and I'm proud of him. ^^ They cameback with 'SOOM' and seriously, Dongwoon improve so much. Everyone did a good job. And I'm so proud of you, Yoseobie. After the surgery and you can still sing so well. In their busy schedules, Doojoonie and Kikwangie; they managed to get their butt to practice and everything. Man! You guys are just LOVE! The hottest rapper with his chubby cheeks is just HOTT! YongJunhyung is FREAKING HOTHOTHOT! Hyunseungie, no matter what, you're the sleeping prince. But you're so beautiful in the video~ And the cute furry thing on your wrist! -screams-

The Part 2 of 'Mastermind' on November and 'Welcome to B2ST Airline' concert on December. Work hard, babies. You guys are just COOL! Kekeke.

Dear Yoon Doojoon

2010-10-13T15:42:00.004+08:00

TAERA~! THIS GUY IS KILLING ME! >.<

What to do, you USED to hate him and USED to love him. Hahaha. And I know there's nothing I can do. Hukhuk... Look at his eyes, wahh~ Like Ilala always used to say "His eyes are BIG!" I LOVE YOON LEADER! It seems like Doojoon comes first than only Ondubu. -sighs- And I think I won't be able to hang out at B2STRISING anymore, until my SPM is over. -screams-

No Dooseob moment anymore~! And I might die because of that! -nosebleed- Aigoo, when Junhyung and Kikwang started to 'get along' so well. Heehee~

Doojoon-ah, why are you so good looking? -sighs- Doojoon and ONEDAY? Heck no way! He deserves to be BEAST's leader and to be with Yoseob. HAHAHA!

DoojoonlovesYoseob! The reality of my life and I have to accept it. ^^

My Random Feelings.

2010-09-26T01:46:00.005+08:00

HA.HA.HA! And guess what, I don't know how I actually feel right now. It's night and you know people will always go crazy at night. XDD~! I know you know what I mean. It's not hard to understand English, right? Well, how do I get rid of these feelings? The happy plus upset plus angry plus unknown. Hmm, I don't think there will be any way for me to handle it. But I'm fine. ^^

First week of trial, does it count as a week? Hah! We're only having our exam for 2 days. Next week will be the real challenge. Biology, History and Addmath; won't them kill you right away? Oh God, I really need a break. HAHAHA, a break? I had enough of that. Kekeke. I mean just, I don't wanna sit for my trial and SPM! NO WAYYYYY~

The only person that is on my mind now is IKA! I'll talk about her. I met her about a month ago at B2STRISING and we're so closed now. I LOVE HER! Well, she loves Kikwang more than me, duhh~ Hahaha. And she is so like me, well not really but she has the same brain as mine. LMAO~! How ridiculous I am! She loves the DOOSEOB and the JUNSEUNG and the KIWOON. A weirdo just like me, has a perverted mind just like me. Lolls...

I feel like writing but I don't know what should I write. So random things like these are FUNN! Basically, BEAST is coming back after the Chuseok. The CLENCHING MY FIST TIGHT is AWESOME even though Yoseob doesn't sound like him. -cries- I WANT MY YANG YOSEOB BACK!!! He'll come back, soon. ^^

September 30 will be the date! It's late now and yeah! I didn't update the picture of the week for so long. Sorryyyyy~ ^^"""

I'll start it back once I finish my trial. With good pictures. Be anticipate!

Currently is 1:59 AM, so better go to bed. BYE-YEOM!

Yoseobie is the cutest!

2010-09-15T16:51:00.013+08:00

Can someone please kill me? OHMYGOD!! How can he be so damn cute! The cutest human being on earth is YANG YOSEOB! For heaven's sake, don't you think that he is just too cute to be a human especially a boy? Tell me about it. I am so serious, he tied his hair and and and he just made me fell for his cuteness. -screams- Yoseobie is CUTE and that's the fact. No one can ever take that status of Yoseob's as the cutest human being on earth.

Take a deep breath. In....and out... AHHHH!!! Yoseob is a cutie pie! I voted for Kiki as the cutest and I'm kinda regret. Seobie is the cutest, Kiki comes second. hukhuk... I'm going to take it back and giving it to YANGYO! My favorite is the second picture~! That is the real cutie pie, Yoseobie. ^^

YANG YOSEOB IS THE CUTEST HUMAN BEING THAT LIVES ON THE EARTH AND HE WILL FOREVER BE THE CUTEST! NO ONE CAN EVER TAKE THAT TITLE BECAUSE HE DESERVES THAT TITLE! ^^

[Dookwang, Dooseob, Kiseob] LOVE!

2010-08-29T21:56:00.000+08:00

TADA~! Picture of the week! Yoseobie, Kikwangie and Doojoonie. Aren't they CUTE!! Dooseob and Dookwang. Kekeke. Lately, Dookwang seems cuter and sweeter than Dooseob and I just don't know why. ^^ This isn't a new picture, it was months ago but I just LIKE IT SO MUCH!!! Dookwang part in 'Special' is the 'Non-stop and POP POP!' Hahaha, Dookwang and Dookwang. Anyways, this is the picture of the week like I said

Hyunseungie's birthday on Friday! B2UTY gonna celebrate his birthday. Hukhuk... I guess I'll just celebrate at the B2STRISING instead of going out with MyB2UTY. -sigh-
It's 10.15 at night, BED TIME! ^^

BYE-YEOM!

I Miss Them!

2010-08-25T23:35:00.000+08:00

Okay, I miss them. Seriously, I MISS MY BIG BANG OPPAS~! But still, SEUNGRI BABY!!! The fact that I need to accept about my panda:
-he's not the cute maknae anymore
-he's hot!
-he lost his pandaness TT______TT

Aigoo, maybe I really need to accept that he's a grown up guy, not a boy.hukhuk... But I don't care, he is still my PANDA! Hahaha. Jiyongie oppa rocks! I love his hair so damn much, he's cool!!! XDD~! Nothing really change about Taeyang and TOP. But DAESUNGIE!!! I don't really like his hair. It's somehow...weird. =.=""
Beautiful Hangover, I've just heard of it. For my first time, it's okay. But I don't know later on. We can never imagine what will happen next, right? Just like BIG BANG's Hands Up, at first it's funny, but it turned out GOOD! =)
The conclusion, I MISS BIG BANG! I miss being the VIP. -sighs-

As for now, BEAST Is The B2ST! As for now, I'm B2UTY and slighty Showal? I can be both, right? Hahaha.
Kikwang made a statement that "I'll never grow taller anywyas." =)
GET WELL SOON, YOSEOBIE~

Currently, it's 11:47PM (My time). It's time to go to bed.
BYE-YEOM!

Idol Maid

2010-08-22T15:01:00.000+08:00

Yoseobie, Junhyungie, Dongwoonie and Hyunseungie~ Hahaha, I love them! But not as much as I love DOOJOONIE. Oh yeah, Dookwang is absent. Kekeke~ The trip during Idol Maid. It's good to have a vacation...with them. hikhik... This will be the picture of the week. I'll update it again, maybe every Sunday? Picture of the week award will be on every Sunday. ^^ Hahaha.

I guess this will be the end of the post. BYE-YEOM! =)

Kiseop Hyung~

2010-07-25T12:00:00.000+08:00

HAHAHA. My KISEOPHYUNG is SWEET~ Kikwang, Yoseob and Junhyung are SWEET. Lalala, DOOJOON IS STILL THE BESTTT!
OHMYGODDD!! ONEW'S NEW HAIR IS NICEEE~ Lucifer is awesome and their comeback stage was awesome. But Minho didn't dance, he just sat at the corner and sang. But still, they are freaking awesome. =) I LOVE YOU, SHINee. I just don't get it, why did they cut Key's hair? I mean his new hair is...weird...funny? I don't like his new hair. -pout-
But still SHINee is cool!! Hopefully they will win for the up coming performances. SHINee HWAITING!

Bengkel Pandu Puteri Kelas II

2010-07-25T11:52:00.001+08:00

I had fun yesterday. It was our JEBON day~ Kekeke. Well at least I felt that way. =) I had my Bengkel Pandu Pueri Kelas II. It was damn boring at first. Seriously, I kept on saying that I wanna go home, I wanna go home, I don't wanna stay here. I was sleepy like hell, but still in the end it was FUNNN!
Spent my time with Nadhirah, Wanie and Bebeh most of the time and Elin and Khal sometime. Gossiping with them and lots of HOT ISSUES. I LOVE IT SO MUCH! Doing the buku log was tiring but since that talked, it didn't feel that bad. ^^
We ate four times and it was worth it to pay that amount of money. I ate well yesterday and they should have do it earlier. hukhuk... Anyways, it was FUNNNN!
Thanks a lot Nadhirah, Wanie, Bebeh, Elin, Khal, Ma, Wana and Cha-Cha. =D

SAENGIL CHUKAHAEYO, DOOJOON OPPA~!

2010-07-04T16:06:00.000+08:00

SAENGIL CHUKAHAEYO~! Doojoon oppa, It's his birthday today. ^^ May God bless you, wishing you a VERY HAPPY BIRTHDAY. Saranghaeyo, Doojoon oppa. There are reasons why Doojoon is AWESOME and Yoon Doojoon is the BEST! B2UTY love B2ST.

Reasons I love YOON DOOJOON:
He is;
-good looking
-cute
-awesome
-kind
-funny
-comfortable
-a good leader
-sweet
-LOVE!
-MY EVERYTHING!

Yoon leader is the b2st! BEAST is the B2ST! Keep on SHOCKING THE NEW ERA and always be my SPECIAL guy. And I'll always be the BAD GIRL. XDD It will be EASY for you guys [BEAST] to shake others' heart. =) Because you guys are AWESOME!!!

lalala, DOOJOON IS CUTE!

BEAST Is The B2ST

2010-06-27T16:53:00.000+08:00

OH MY GODD!!! Yesterday was AWESOME! They looked so good looking even though they were late. Huh! Making us waiting for them for so long. I got there at 4.40PM and we entered the place at 8.20PM. What the fish! But still, since that they are the BEAST, so I'll just let that go. ^^ The show started at 8.45PM and kept on going until 9.45PM. The performance ended and the fansign started around 10PM. And they will only be signing for an hour time. And I guess it was my luck, I got up the stage and got their autographs. ^^
My hands were shaking like mad. Meeting them face to face was like a dream come true. =) The sitting started with Junhyung, Dongwoon, Gikwang, Doojoon, Hyungseung and the last one was Yoseob. We didn't allowed to shake hand or even take a picture. But still, we can talk to them. HAHAHAHA!!! =))
When I put the book on the table, Junhyung just signed it and didn't even look up. Huhu... But then Dongwoon looked at me!! He smiled and waved his hand at me. And I was like smiling back and waving back! OMG, the maknae was CUTEEEE~!!! Then next, Gikwang. He signed and didn't look up, but I called him.
Me: Gikwang oppa.
GiKwang: -look up and smile-
Me: You look good. -smile-
Gikwang: Thank you. -smile-
MOMMY~!!!!! HE WAS SO HOOTTT!!!! Then the next one, YOON DOOJOON!
Me: Doojoon oppa.
Doojoon: -look up and smile-
Me: I love you so much. And you look great.
Doojoon: Thank you. -smile-
Me: You're the best leader. I love you so much! -smile and giggle-
Doojoon: Thank you, I love you too. -smile and laugh-
OH MY GODDD!!!!! HE SAID 'I LOVE YOU TOO'!!! HE SAID THAT TO MEEEE!!!!! I think I blushed. teehee~ Then the next one, Yoseob.
Yoseob: -look up and smile-
Me: You're so cute. -smile-
Yoseob: Thank you very much. -smile and wave-
That's the end, because of the stupid guard go and pull me away. Aigoo. But still, I talked to Doojoon, Yoseob and Gikwang. Having a little waving waving and smiling smiling with Dongwoon. Junhyung and Hyunseung were just too busy with the signing thingy and didn't even look up. Well anyways, I didn't have the time to say anything. But then I stopped in front of Gikwang for so long and stopped in front of Doojoon for SUPER LONG, that's why I had the time to talk to them and since that I have to take back the book from Yoseob, so I got the chance to talk to him. ^^
Seriously, Doojoon and I laughed together? He was like 'Hahaha' with me while looking at me? OH MY GOD! That was heavenly happy. Suddenly I felt closed with him. =) They were just so 'WOW'! I'm not gonna forget about that, NEVER! I LOVE BEAST! Because 'BEAST Is The B2ST'! ^^ They are freaking AWESOME!

I feel...weird.

2010-06-10T02:46:00.000+08:00

Aish! It is so freaking me out. Oh God, seriously I am so not liking it now. The way I feel right now. I don't think I can take it anymore. I always wanted to stop it but I can't. It is so freaking me out now. What should I do? The days with him was like fun? Maybe. I like it yet I hate it. I like him but yet I hate him. Well, not really hate him. just that I dislike him? Yup! Dislike him. But I know that I like him. Seriously, do anything you want but don't stop my heart from beating for you because "No, thank you. I like feeling this way."
Didn't I show him enough? I mean it was like "I like you" and... He should know that I like him. What I sent to him were so obvious to tell that I like him. But he didn't know. What a moron! -sigh- It is so hard to like someone, isn't it? I should stop, liking him. Stop it now and don't go deeper inside. AHH!!! I am so not liking it now.
Maybe I should stop talking to him and just go with the flow. DO NOT FOLLOW YOUR SOUL! It's a crime, you stupid! -nods- Live on like the old days. Be happy and don't ever think about him. NO MORE~! Love yourself and be FILA~

V.I like this. I miss the cute innocent maknae Seungri. The new Seungri is the cool handsome good looking chubby hot sexy maknae. My strong baby, Lee Seunghyun.

Shoting

2010-05-13T19:04:00.000+08:00

Why do I always have a friend problem? Hm... It's tiring, somehow. But I think I can't complain about it, maybe this is what the God wanted me to go through. I have to be strong so that I can continue with my life. -nods- But I don't think that I can take it anymore. I'm tired, VERY tired. I just wanted a happy life, going to school and have fun while study.

It's okay, it's okay. Everything's gonna be alright. No worries. ^^ You have to be strong for yourself. Don't let people look down on you. Try to get rid of the problems that are hunting you. Like what Jiyong oppa did. If he can do it, why can't you. Yup! I have to live up with that. And always live up with the quote that you made, you have to be strong like Jiyong oppa. He went through a lot and he still can be the best. The things that he went through were whole lot harder than yours. So if Jiyong oppa can fight with it, you can do it too.

That's right! You have to focus on your study, for just couple of months. You have to fight till the end. That is us, the Warriors! Don't cry, don't you ever cry again because if you cry, you'll be a loser and Mister Demon Trash said that "The word loser doesn't even live in the YA-HA Family's dictionary."

I have to work hard like my oppas. Hard work that made them the BEST! ^^ And I have to be smart like my new sensei. =) I must fall in love with Chemistry. I have to, for my future. I have to be strong!

Be brave like G the Dragon, have a rocking Tempo, have a beautiful Sol, have a nice D-Lite smile, and with that, you'll get your V.I.C.T.O.R.Y~

You Who I Love The Most

2010-05-07T23:53:00.000+08:00

Kwon Jiyong. I love you, freaking in love with you.

Kwon Jiyong, Kwon Jiyong and Kwon Jiyong.

Kwon Jiyong? Who is Kwon Jiyong?

Kwon Jiyong is G-Dragon/GD.

G-Dragon? Who is G-Dragon?

G-Dragon is the leader of the boy band BIG BANG.

Why do I love Kwon Jiyong?

Because he is:

-Good looking/Hot/Sexy

-Cute/Adorable/Pretty

-The best songwriter

-The best brother

-The best leader

-Kind

-Sweet

-Funny

-Comfortable

-Understanding

-L.O.V.E.

And that's why I love Kwon Jiyong. No matter what, he is the best oppa ever~! No matter what people do to him, I'll support him till the end. Yup! I will because I love him.

My Version of Strong Baby.

2010-05-04T16:03:00.000+08:00

This is something rated. Underage kids be aware.

I had a dream, again. And this time it was something new to me? I don't know. But surely Seungri was there and even the main character in my dream. My version of Strong Baby. Hm...yes, my version of Strong Baby. Strong Baby was written by G-Dragon for Seungri. Yup, Seungri sang that song on Inkigayo, Music Bank, Big Shows and variety shows.

Crack, crack, crack, crack. Crack is a type of drug, a not good type of drug. Maybe Seungri was being drugged because he didn't act like himself. That scene, I can still remember it and it felt so real. Real? It was just a dream.

Maybe I watch too much of Strong Baby which made me drove almost every scene into my dream. Where he went to the club, where he found a girl, where he went for her, where he held her, where he touched her, where he buried his head on her shoulder or more like at the neck, where he sat on the bed, where he waited for the girl to come, where he touched her tights, her hands, her face, her body, where he kissed her lips, her neck.

Those scene were actually popped out during my dream and where Seungri was right there, sitting on the bed but he was just not himself. I don't know but it felt like it was me? I don't know. The scenes were more than the music video. More than ever, more than just touching, kissing. It went to something deeper and something indescribable.

I never had this kind of dream before. It felt weird at first but he just turned me on with the moans that were escaping from his mouth. 'Just me, into my body go'. That was one of the lyrics of the song [Strong Baby]. 'Come a little closer, yeah just like that'. Did it went to deep? I don't know. I can't really remember.

AHH!!! This is driving me nuts! I just don't have the dare to write more. Lets just say that after the kissing and all, you know what they will do, right? So and that's it. That was what had happened to us; me and Seungri. -blushing- This is so weird! AHH!!!

G-Ri is LOVE [Part 2]

2010-05-03T14:54:00.000+08:00

AHH~! My mom woke me up just when I saw Seungri and Jiyong. Huhuhu~ TT^TT Seriously, I was so happy that they were actually teaching me how to sing Lies. Hahaha. But that was so cute; to see how the Tom and Jerry being so ADORABLE~! -beam- I love them so much now that I can't even tell. The G-Ri is just too cute and I personally LOVE them to death! ^^

How can this happened? Since when did I find the two of them look so sweet when they're together? I don't know. Seungri will just follow Jiyong no matter where he goes. Seungri just loves Jiyong so much~! Same goes to Jiyong.

No doubt that the leader and the maknae have something going on. Hehe, I don't mind. At least G-Ri looks just fine. And I don't mind if they are...er...actually...er...gay~!! Hahaha. Seriously, I don't mind about them being gay. -nods- It's weird to say this but yeah, I D.O.N.T M.I.N.D T.H.E.M B.E.I.N.G G.A.Y~! ^^

I LOVE GDxVI....

Daesung oppa, SAENGIL CHUKAHAEYO~!

2010-04-26T11:47:00.000+08:00

DAESEUNG-ie oppa, CHUKAHAEYO~ HAPPY BIRTHDAY to you, Dae-Dae. ^^ Our smiling angel, Kang Daesung. May God bless you, oppa. Keep up the smiling face and the happy attitude. We, VIP love you so much! Daesung oppa JJANG~! Saranghaeyo. It's been a tiring year for you, but I know, we know that you can do it! =) Daesung oppa never disappoint us. KANG DAESUNG IS LOVE!!! Be the best out of the best, oppa. Never let the smile leave you because you and the smile are one. -nods- ^^

No matter what, I LOVE YOU DAESUNG OPPA~! We will always be there to support you. Once again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY~!

대성오빠 생일 축하합니다~!!♥

Saranghaeyo, Kwon Jiyong

2010-04-22T08:02:00.000+08:00

This is a signature and a message by G-Dragon that was include in the 'Shine A Light' DVD. The message goes like this:

VIP…
벌써 많은 시간이 지났지만
앞으로 함께 해나갈 일들이 더욱 많기에!
울지말고 강해져라 그리고 다 같이 웃어라

VIP…
Although a lot of time has passed already
Let’s continue to do many more things together in the future!
Don’t cry, be strong and let’s laugh together.

VIP won't cry, oppa. We love you so much~!

거짓말 (Lies)

2010-04-13T23:45:00.000+08:00

여보세요
여보세요?

Yeah, love is pain
Dedicated to all my broken-hearted people
One's old a flame
Just scream my name
And I'm so sick of love songs
Yeah, I hate damn love songs, memento of ours
거짓말

늦은 밤 비가 내려와 널 데려와
젖은 기억 끝에 뒤척여 나
너 없이 잘 살 수 있다고
다짐 해 봐도 어쩔 수 없다고
못하는 술도 마시고
속 타는 맘 밤새 채워 봐도
싫어 너 없는 하루는 길어 빌어
제발 잊게 해달라고 (거짓말이야)

너 없는 내겐 웃음이 보이지 않아
눈물조차 고이지 않아
더는 살고 싶지 않아

엿같애 열 받게
네 생각에 돌아버릴 것 같애
보고 싶은데 볼 수가 없데
모두 끝났데
I'll be right there

I'm so sorry but I love you 다 거짓말이야
몰랐어 이제야 알았어 네가 필요해
I'm so sorry but I love you 날카로운 말
홧김에 나도 모르게 널 떠나보냈지만
I'm so sorry but I love you 다 거짓말
I'm so sorry (I'm sorry) but I love you (I love you more more)
I'm so sorry but I love you 나를 떠나
천천히 잊어줄래 내가 아파할 수 있게

그댈 위해서 불러왔던 내 모든 걸 다 바친 노래
사람들은 모르겠죠
난 혼자 그 아무도 아무도 몰래
그래 내가 했던 말은 거짓말

홀로 남겨진 외톨이 그 속에 헤매는 내 꼴이
주머니 속에 꼬깃꼬깃 접어 둔 이별을 향한 쪽지
넌 어딨나요 널 부르는 습관도
난 달라질래 이젠 다 웃어 넘길게

I'm so sorry but I love you 다 거짓말이야
몰랐어 이제야 알았어 네가 필요해
I'm so sorry but I love you 날카로운 말
홧김에 나도 모르게 널 떠나보냈지만
I'm so sorry but I love you 다 거짓말
I'm so sorry (I'm sorry) but I love you (I love you more more)
I'm so sorry but I love you 나를 떠나
천천히 잊어줄래 내가 아파할 수 있게

Oh oh oh oh oh
모든게 꿈이길
Oh oh oh
이것 밖에 안되는 나라서

Drop that beat...

아직도 너를 못 잊어
아니 평생을 가도 죽어서까지도
내가 준 상처 아물었는지
미안해 아무 것도 해준 게 없는 나라서

I'm so sorry but I love you 다 거짓말이야
몰랐어 이제야 알았어 네가 필요해
I'm so sorry but I love you 날카로운 말
홧김에 나도 모르게 널 떠나보냈지만
I'm so sorry but I love you 다 거짓말
I'm so sorry (I'm sorry) but I love you (I love you more more)
I'm so sorry but I love you 나를 떠나
천천히 잊어줄래 내가 아파할 수 있게

Bye bye...

[Translation]

[GD]
Yeah (love is pain)dedicated to all my broken hearted people. One’s old flame, just scream my name and I’m so sick of love songs. Yeah hate them love songs. Memento of ours… Lies!

[GD]
A late night and rain falling down. I bring you back from my memories. I promised myself I would be fine without you, but I can’t help it. I take in liquor which I don’t even know how to handle trying to fill my empty heart. A day without you is too long. I pray that I may please forget you (that’s a lie).

[Seung Ri]
Without you happiness cannot be found in me. I can’t even shed any tears. I don’t want to live anymore.

[GD]
Yeah, this is bullshit, it’s pissing me off. I’m going crazy in thoughts of you. I want to see you, but I’m being told that I can’t, that it’s all over (I’ll be right there).

[CHORUS]
I'm so sorry but i love you. It was all lies . I didn't know. Now i realized that i need you.
I'm so sorry but i love you. I gave you scars. I should have never let you go to waste.
I'm so sorry but i love you. It was all lies
I'm so sorry ( i'm sorry ) but i love you ( I love you more more )
I'm so sorry but i love you . Can you leave me and forget me slowly ,so i can get hurt ?
[T.O.P]
I dedicated my all into this song for you
[DAESUNG]]
other people probably don’t know.
[T.O.P]
By myself, without anyone knowing. (yeah, those words I said were lies). A loner left in the midst of it all. In my pocket is the breakup letter that’s all wrinkled and folded up in my pocket, hey,
[DAESUNG]
And my habit of calling for you and wondering where you are.

[T.O.P]
I’m gonna change, I’ll laugh everything off from now on.

[CHORUS]
I'm so sorry but i love you. It was all lies . I didn't know. Now i realized that i need you.
I'm so sorry but i love you. I gave you scars. I should have never let you go to waste.
I'm so sorry but i love you. It was all lies
I'm so sorry ( i'm sorry ) but i love you ( I love you more more )
I'm so sorry but i love you . Can you leave me and forget me slowly ,so i can get hurt ?

[SEUNG RI]
Oh oh oh oh oh, I hope this is all a dream. Oh oh oh oh oh, because I only add up to this much. Drop that babe,
[DAESUNG]
I still can’t forget you. No I don’t think I ever will, even ’til the day I die, yeah.
[TAE YANG]
Did the scars I gave you heal? I’m sorry because I never got to do anything for you.

[CHORUS]
I'm so sorry but i love you. It was all lies . I didn't know. Now i realized that i need you.
I'm so sorry but i love you. I gave you scars. I should have never let you go to waste.
I'm so sorry but i love you. It was all lies
I'm so sorry ( i'm sorry ) but i love you ( I love you more more )
I'm so sorry but i love you . Can you leave me and forget me slowly ,so i can get hurt ?

Relationship

2010-04-13T23:35:00.000+08:00

Aish! Why are they keep on saying that I'm having a relationship with Dolly? We're just friends. No more, no less. Well, I DID hope for more. But I'm not putting any hope for it. NO WAY! I am so not going to put any hope on it. -nods- As what Youngbae oppa told me. Come on, I have G-Ri now. I have such a good brother fiancé and brothers, Dolly is just someone that I think as a BEST FRIEND. Like me and E-Jump. So Dolly is just a friend of mine.
Thinking about Dolly, really make me feel like running away. -sigh- I don't know! I don't know. Aigoo, this is so confusing. Maybe, just maybe I like Dolly. But I won't do anything about it. I am so sick of it ever since Kuali did that to me. WAH! I hate Kuali. No Kuali anymore! My life is wonderful. ^^ I love my life now, except for that I'm tired. That's it.
Hahaha. I don't care~ As long as I'm happy with myself now. Yayy~! The song for today will be 'Lies' by BIGBANG. I'll post it in just minutes time. =)
I'm so sorry (sorry), But I love you (I love you more, more).

Sengil Chukahaeyo, Mista Kim Jonghyun...

2010-04-08T17:23:00.000+08:00

Happy Happy Happy Birthday, KimJonghyun~! I have nothing else to say other than Sengil Chukahaeyo. It's good that you're not an underage guy anymore. Hahahaha!!! May God bless you and have a nice day. Be a good member, dude. You're so making troubles lately. Kekeke... ^^
But the most important thing is that, BE GOOD AT FAIZ OR I'LL KICK YOU BUTT! Lolls XDDD~! Don't eat too much or you'll lose your beautiful voice and PLEASE! Please don't overact when you sing. ARASO?! Huh! Hahahaha...
Once again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MISTA KIM JONGHYUN~! ;p

Dolly Again~!

2010-04-06T17:33:00.000+08:00

Guess what, I love Dolly so much! I love Seungri so much! I love Jiyong so much. So for the combination, G-RI~! I love them, my hubby plus oppa. I don't really mind them being gay though. LOLLs~! Well if they really are which I know they aren't. -sigh- But still, I love them and I am so don't mind them if they wanted to be together. -beam- I know that this might be not so true, but as for me it is so true that Jiyong was actually jealous of Top who got that hug from Seungri instead of him who getting that hug. Haha! Just admit it, oppa.
I miss my honey Faiz~! But then no worries, we'll be meeting up on Thursday. It's a big Yayy~~ I really hope that I'll be able to be here. Haha, I miss her so much! AND! FAITHY~! Where have you been? You're like gone and I haven't been talking to you for quite awhile. TT^TT
I LOVE LEE SEUNGHYUN SO MUCH! I can't get rid of this fever I have. It's been almost 3 months. MY GOD! Seriously, I am so started to forget about Ondubu. -gasp!- No, no, no. I am not going to forget about him that easily. But for cheesecake, I haven't been saying his name and only 'Seungri, Panda, Ri, Maknae Seunghyun, small Seunghyun' and what so his nickname that were coming out from my this little mouth. AHHH!!! But who cares, I care! No way! This can't be, right? I mean, this is so doesn't make any sense! Damn it! Well at least he is still my hubby. Really? Yeah, yeah. Don't ever change it! Just let Seungri be at the place where he should be and that is the second place. Or maybe first? NOOOOO~!!!!! Second!!! And that's it!
Okay, I am so writing random things now. Hahaha!!! I don't care, as long as I'm happy with it. I am? Haha, duh~! Kekeke... I am so nearly buy that CD, but I used that money for something else. -pout- Anyways, I don't mind. ^^ Well at least I love that thing I bought.
KOREAN DREAM~! And I don't care he put that in. I mean the 'motherfu*k' thingy. -shrug- Anything will be just fine because he is G-DRAGON! HAHAHAH~! I am so loving him now. MY OPPA, I LOVE G-DRAGON~! Muahahahah~~~
V.I like this. -smirk-

Dolly~!

2010-04-05T18:47:00.000+08:00

I think I like him, seriously. Who could it be? Hahaha, it's a secret which only Jiyong oppa knows it. Heehee~ The name I set for him is Dolly. But why? I don't know. -shrug- But who cares. -beam- Lately, he's been so nice to me. Maybe that side of him which managed to pull me to his side and all. Just maybe. I don't know. Days past by and that our relationship is still the same. I'm not placing a hope for him though and I don't want too. It will cause me trouble. Believe me, you don't wanna know.
Well, not going to talk about Dolly anymore. Wah! Somehow the Dolly name sound a bit...funny and...weird for a guy. Anyways, I like it to be called Dolly. ^^ Okay, no more Dolly and back to what I wanna talk. Hmm, basically nothing. I am so into G-Ri now which I can't afford myself from stop thinking about them. My mind goes like "G-Ri is cute, G-Ri is sweet, G-ri is Love, G-ri is this and that and all!!!". I am so cannot stop it now. The G-Ri fever hit on me. The Seungri fever never go away and still I feel so into my STRONG BABY (crack, crack, crack, crack. Tonight, you know. Crack, crack, crack, crack). And the "V.I like this" is still playing in my mind. I can't stop it now, I don't know what's going wrong with me.
AHH~! I think I've just took a drug. A drug called crack. A so not good drug for a human being. NOOO~!
Yeah, just like that. Crack, crack, crack, crack. You know how it is. Crack, crack, crack, crack. V.I LIKE THIS.

My Heaven

2010-04-05T14:46:00.000+08:00

Love you girl, only you are my heaven
Sing it together
Lalala...
Big Bang
Lalala...
Hey T, let's do it bro
Go go go...

24/7 talking about heaven
24/7 dreamlike heaven
24/7 forever heaven
24/7 heaven let's go

it’s the truth if I say you are my eternal LOVER
Everything in the past is like never let go
Never knew that love could come and go just like that yo
Waited for you day and night in my dreams and go
Summer flow in the night, take flight and glow
That's forever love...I thought
I should be with you TOMORROW IT'S GONE

our making LOVE is great, why have you GONE
love has always failed to grab my hands
only you somehow are a little different
I always felt this was fate I REALIZE AH AH
You're the only on in my life
sadness ONE FOR THE LOVE GET BACK

I want to see you, I want to see you
and I’m waiting for you by that sea,
my feelings for you, whether it’s morning, afternoon, or evening
I want to see you, YOU ARE MY HEAVEN (Think of you 24/7)

Happiness ... sadness ... tears ...

Sky ... stars ... and my heaven

only you are missing
but the world is so colorless
the depth of the damage is immeasurable
those lips of that days are still warm
but even if I keep remembering them, I’m at loss of knowing what to do

Oh Baby, look, memories of you are still in my heart
Oh Baby, your messages still remain on my body
so that this unable-to-cool-down heat can be stopped
Oh Baby, the cold rain is falling, BECAUSE OF YOU

please don’t vanish, don’t vanish
please stop time at that summer
I’m still holding those memories, whether it’s autumn, winter, or spring
for eternity YOU ARE MY HEAVEN

Hey, Hey, listen to me

finally the message came
there’s only “I’m sorry”, I really don’t understand at all
just one more time, come to my side, smiling like those times

I want to see you, I want to see you
I’m waiting for you by that sea, my feelings for you
whether it’s morning, afternoon, or evening
I want to see you, YOU ARE MY HEAVEN (Think of you 24/7)

24/7 MY HEAVEN

A Boy

2010-04-04T23:54:00.000+08:00

GD your choice drop it on me yo

밤은 깊었는데 잠은 안 오고
Bameun giputneundae jameun anogo
It’s deep in the night but I can’t sleep

늘어난 두통과 싸우고
Neuluhnan dutonggwa ssaoogo
Fighting against the worsened headaches

이리저리 뒤척이다 생각에 잠겨 또 펜을 붙잡고
Irijuri dwichukida saenggakeh jamgyo ddo peneul bootjabgo
Twisted and turned until I was deep in my thoughts then grabbed the pen again

빼곡히 써 내려가는 가사 이 안에 내 철학이 가득 하다
Bbaegokhe ssu naeryuganeun gasa ee anae nae chulhaki gadeukhada
The lyrics that I’m writing with no space in between have my philosophy

뿌연 담배 연기 꽉 찬 내방 home sweet home 아늑하다
Bbooyeon dambae yeongi ggwakchan naebang home sweet home aneukhada
My room that’s filled with white smoke is cozy like home sweet home

13살 나이에 와서 쉴 틈 없이 달려왔어
Yeolsaesal naeeae wasuh shil teum upsi dalleawatsuh
I’ve came here with no rest since I was 13

멋모르는 자신감이 내겐 가장 큰 무기였어
Mutmoreuneun jashingami naegaen gajang keun mugiyeotsuh
My mightiest weapon was my confidence

오르막길 이라면 내리막길도 있는 법
Oreumakgil eeramyeon naerimakgildo itneun bub
When there’s an uphill there’s always a downhill

돌아가기엔 너무 늦어버렸어 I can’t let go
Dolagagiaen numu neujuhburyeotsuh I can’t let go
Too late to go back I can’t let go

Remember back in that day

빛나던 꿈을 난 절대 잊지 못해 그 때 그 꿈을
Bitnadeun ggoomeul nan juldae itji mothae geuddae geu ggomeul
Your shining dream, I cannot forget that dream

Don’t forget back in that day 소년이여
Don’t forget back in that day sonyeoneeyeo
Don’t forget back in that day boy

네 멋진 목소리로 세상에 소리쳐 shine alive
Ni mutjin moksoriro saesangeh sorichu shine alive
Shout to the world with your cool voice, shine alive

G-dragon 남들이 뭐 라건 작다고 어리다고
G-dragon namdeulee mwo rageum jakdago uhridago
G-dragon whatever people say about how you’re too young

난 G-dragon 남들이 뭐라 건 워~
Nan G-dragon namdeulee mwo rageumnwhao~
I’m G-dragon whatever the others say whao~

사람들은 말해 내가 부러워 가진 게 너무 많아
Saramdeuleun malhae naega buruwuh gajingae numu manah
People say they’re jealous of me because I have too much

연예인들은 다 편하게만 살아
Yeonaeindeuleun da pyeonhagaeman salah
Celebrities all live a comfortable life

딱 하루만 그 입장이 돼봐라
Ddak haruman geu ipjangee dwehbara
Be in their shoes for just a day

보이는 게 다가 아니란 걸 알아
Boeeneun gae daga ahniran gul alah
You’ll realize what you see isn’t everything

시간이 흘러 가면서 외로움만 커져갔어
Shiganee heullu gamyunsuh whelooomman kujugatsuh
As time passed by my loneliness grew

멋모르는 의무감 내겐 가장 큰 부담이었어
Mutmoreuneun euimugam naegaem gajang keun budameeyeotsuh
The sense of duty was the heaviest burden for me

오르막길이라면 내리막길도 있는 법
Oreumakgileeramyeon naerimakgildo itneun bub
When there’s an uphill there’s always a downhill

도망치기엔 너무 늦어버렸어 I wanna go
Domangchigiaen numu neujuhburyeotsuh I wanna go
Too late to run away I wanna go

Remember back in that day

빛나던 꿈을 난 절대 잊지 못해 그 때 그 꿈을
Bitnadeun ggoomeul nan juldae itji mothae geuddae geu ggomeul
Your shining dream, I cannot forget that dream

Don’t forget back in that day 소년이여
Don’t forget back in that day sonyeoneeyeo
Don’t forget back in that day boy

네 멋진 목소리로 세상에 소리쳐 shine alive
Ni mutjin moksoriro saesangeh sorichu shine alive
Shout to the world with your cool voice, shine alive

10년 동안 수많은 울음들과 내가 흘린 수많은 땀방울들과
Shibnyun dongan sumaneun ooleumdeulgwa naega heullin sumaneun ddambangooldeulgwa
The tears and sweat from the past 10 years

내가 참아온 차가운 눈물들 Ah ah Ah ah 다시 시작해 보는 거야
Naega chamahon chagaoon noonmooldeul ah ah ah ah dashi shijakhae boneun guya
The cold tears you’ve held back ah ah ah ah lets start again

Remember back in that day

빛나던 꿈을 난 절대 잊지 못해 그 때 그 꿈을
Bitnadeun ggoomeul nan juldae itji mothae geuddae geu ggomeul
Your shining dream, I cannot forget that dream

Don’t forget back in that day 소년이여
Don’t forget back in that day sonyeoneeyeo
Don’t forget back in that day boy

네 멋진 목소리로 세상에 소리쳐 shine alive
Ni mutjin moksoriro saesangeh sorichu shine alive
Shout to the world with your cool voice, shine alive

(Just once) Remember back in that day (Go back) 빛나던 꿈이 (Huh)
(Just once) Remember back in that day (Go back) Bitnadun ggomee (Huh)
(Just once) Remember back in that day (Go back) Shining dream (Huh)

난 절대 잊지 못해 (Forget) 그 때 그 꿈을 (Huh)
Nan juldae itji mothae (forget) geuddae geu ggomeul (huh)
I can never forget (forget) That dream then (huh)

Don’t forget back in that day (way back) 소년이여
Don’t forget back in that day (way back) sonyeoneeyeo
Don’t forget back in that day (way back) boy

네 멋진 목소리로 세상에 소리쳐 shine alive
Ni mutjin moksoriro saesangeh sorichu shine alive
Shout to the world with your wonderful voice shine alive

Come back to me now(10년이 지나도)
Come back to me now(shibnyeonee jinado)
Come back to me now (even after 10 years)

Come back to me now(10년이 지나도)
Come back to me now(shibnyeonee jinado)
Come back to me now (even after 10 years)

Come back to me now

Come back to me now (지나간 세월, 내 청춘을)
Come back to me now (Jinagan saewul, nae chungchooneul)
Come back to me now (The past days, my youth)

Remember back in that day(It’s time to shine)

난 절대 잊지 못해 (That’s choice)
Nan jeuldda itji mothae (that’s choice)
I can never forget (that’s choice)

Don’t forget back in that day (dropped to you by GD)

네 멋진 목소리로 세상에 소리쳐 shine alive
Ni mutjin moksoriro saesangeh sorichu shine alive
Shout to the world with your wonderful voice shine alive

Lolls~!

2010-03-29T23:55:00.000+08:00

I've changed my family name! WAH~! From Chang Yuuri to Dong Yuuri. Don't you think that it sound a bit weird? At first I really thought of it, but since that it's actually sound cute, I don't mind. And the best thing is that TAEYANG is my OPPA~! My husband turned out to be my oppa. HUSBAND?! Naahh, it was just a game. The game that I will always end up marrying Taeyang. Lolls~!
At first I was thinking of Seung Yuuri. But then I have no relative if I'm actually having 'Seung' as my family name. But then if 'Dong', I have Youngbae oppa a.k.a Taeyang oppa. So I'm fine with it. After all, I still have my oppa deul; my beloved oppa-Kwon Jiyong, my gorgeous oppa-Kim Heechul and my err...unknown oppa-Kim Jaejoong? And now I have a real oppa-Dong Youngbae/Taeyang. ^^
But still, no matter how hard I try, Jiyong oppa is still my FIRST oppa. My lovely cute silly handsome brave oppa. I LOVE G-DRAGON~!

Recently, I created something by using the BIGBANG's Japanese name. GD, TEMPO, SOL, D-LITE and V.I
It goes,
"Be brave like G the Dragon; have your Tempo in life; have a wonderful SOL; have a D-LITE smile; with that, you'll get your V.I-ctory~!"
Kekeke... I can't believe I actually managed to create something like that. Lolls XD~!
I don't know why, but I am SO CRAZY over the song 'MY HEAVEN' by BIGBANG. It is just like, I will turn the volume up just for that particular song. 24/7, MY HEAVEN~!

I LOVE ONEW~!
I LOVE SEUNGRI~!

Goodbye Baby

2010-03-28T23:55:00.000+08:00

uh uh uh yo i was so good to her but she still left i just gaze upon it (u know)
where you going after throwing me out so cold-heartedly how can you smile so easily...?! why is this such misery..
you made me cry right here you killed me! you've even burned away my soul (let's go)
it's ok i've thrown out the regrets you were smiling in the arms of another guy wooh!

she was ma baby i'm entrusting her with you
the one whom i loved more than myself, she wants you
i've let her go i've endured it
i hope the upsetting rumors i hear aren't true

(early morning past midnight) awakening by your phone call
(rubbing my heavy eyes) i greet you
(i don't understand at all) your words that are telling me that you've missed me
don't say things like that any longer U know why I don't want you anymore

good bye good bye baby
just just just just be happy don't look for me
good bye good bye baby
U know U know U know U know U gotta go
can't take it no more

she was ma baby through the tip of my nose
the scent of you that has lingered throughout the many nights
with your wet lips sexy body hot breaths
did you look at him with that same look in your eyes like when you wanted me ye

(with the last cold words)

to you who turned your back on me
(with my burning tears) i've washed and thrown you out
(after all this time passed)

your telling me you want us to go back
don't look for me any longer U know why I don't want you anymore

good bye good bye baby
just just just just be happy don't look for me
good bye good bye baby
U know U know U know U know U gotta go
can't take it no more

[Rap]
exactly why are you hanging on to me were you desperate to be in another mans arms again uh!
i dont understand that sign you gave me Dont make me laugh, making that same attempt everytime uh!
ya'll know ma steelo Letting you go with a smile on my face was my last consideration for you
i wont hold you back so leave Go back to that other guy and beg again c'mon

(with the last cold words) to you who turned your back on me
(with my burning tears) i've washed and thrown you out
(after all this time passed) your telling me you want us to go back
don't look for me any longer U know why I don't want you anymore

good bye good bye baby
just just just just be happy don't look for me
good bye good bye baby
U know U know U know U know U gotta go

good bye good bye baby
just just just just be happy don't look for me.

BOMMIE'S BIRTHDAY~!

2010-03-25T00:56:00.000+08:00

SENGIL CHUKAHAMNIDA, PARK BOM~! Happy BOMDAY for you. May God bless you. You're so pretty like always. And definitely look so beautiful in the 'Try To Follow Me' music video. I LOVE YOU, BOMMIE~! <3 Always be happy and be strong for 2NE1. You're the big sister of 2NE1. So please do take good care of the members AND YOURSELF. ^^ It was so cute to see you and Jiyong were fighting because of something simple. Kekeke... =)
Bommie unnie, sengil chukahaeyo. =D

Games

2010-03-23T18:41:00.000+08:00

Today was boring. My friends were not in the class for the whole morning session. I was left alone but luckily Wanie and Nadia were there. ^^ It was so strange for the class to be so quiet and so peaceful. I can say that I studied a lot. Hahaha.
But my friends came back for the evening session. We ate our lunch and went back to class. Having a little chat and then Taera been saying that she hates Junho. I was like "WHY????" Then she said that she played a game with her sister a.k.a. Ila. And she got married to Junho for more than 10 times. But she was saying that kinda in a joke tone. Then she had been talking about that game which made me wanted to play.
So she took out some papers. The game was like some kind of story; in a story way. There were some blank spaces and to be filled with names. Taera asked me which group do I wanna use for the game and I said "BIG BANG!"
I played for 3 games and ended up marrying Taeyang for the 3 times. It was kinda funny. Ila really made a funny stupid story. I wanted to really tell you about the game, but it's way too hard for me to explain it here. But I'll get a chance to explain it here fully. ^^
I guess my husband is actually Taeyang. Lolls~! XD

Fall In Like?

2010-03-16T23:28:00.000+08:00

I can't tell, but he is cute. ^^ The first time I saw him, he was so sweet? I guess. He talked to me and joked with me. And I was like 'HE TALK TO ME!' -blushing- Well, you can tell that I like him. Teeheee~ Even though Hyerim said that poyo la die tu, but I don't find that he's poyo. At least he's friendly and has a really cute smile. Seriously, I can't get rid of his image out of my mind. But the most important thing is that I took his picture. YAYY~~~ When I asked him 'Jom amik gamba' and he was like 'Jom'.HAHAH!!! -giggling- But I didn't take a photo with him, just a photo of himself only. HAHAH!!!
MY GOD! For cheesecake, that was the first time I felt so different when talking to a guy. Even though that I used to like 'kuali' when I was in form 3, but still the feelings with 'him' and 'kuali' are way so different. He is SO CUTE when he smiles. But not to show that I like him, so I pretended to be normal as I could. AHH!!! I think I really like him. But anyways, I still got his Facebook and he said that 'Always feel free to add me' YEEEAAAHHHH!!!!! I AM SO DAMN HAPPY! ^^
When we were leaving, I had to go when they were giving the presents. I don't even have the time to say at least a goodbye to him. Only to see him for the last time for real? I hope so to meet him again. My so called 'Prince Charming'? -blushing- Will I be revealing his name? Hm... -smile- Maybe I will.

Smart and Easy Math (Kem Perkampungan)

2010-03-16T22:41:00.000+08:00

I'm tired yet still happy. Just came back from the Smart and Easy Math Camp. Got tired and my dark circles, worse than before. -sigh- But still, I'm happy. HAHA! Had new friends and gained more knowledge after the camp. It was fun and I don't even regret for going.
The first day was totally awkward. I mean like SO AWKWARD. Only Amirah, Nadhirah and me were the only three who came from S.M.K. Puncak Alam. But I still can accept it, but I just couldn't deal with those who stared at us like we were some kind of...rubbish? Er..unknown. Anyways, I don't mind them, at least there are still some of them treat us nicely like Hani and the gang. They are so sweet and cute. ^^ I really like them a lot. That evening, forming a group of 17? 18 members. As usual, awkward. But then they are actually nice and funny. Our leader, Alif? Or Arif, I don't know was like somehow nice but the next day turned out to be so poyo. Our group's name is the Warriors a.k.a. Kumpulan 3. HAHAHA! There were so many of us and definitely I cannot remember their names. But I do for some of them. sorry friends. Kekeke...^^"" We, the Warriors together sang the song entitle...unknown (I don't know) it goes like this 'Warriors, Hot to Go, H.O.T.T.O.G.O...' something like that. HAHAHAH!!! Our leader was funny. But sorry, leader. I don't even remember your name. LOLLs XD! I do remember some of their names like Fatin, Izzati, Jannatul, Shuk and.... But seriously, I remember their names but their faces, er... sorry. Except for Shuk, well duh! He's a guy. Hahahaha! Hah? Okay, I started to write random things.
So day 2 was somehow TIRED! Woke up at 5 and went to bed at 1130. Luckily I have no eye bags. Teeheee.... ^^ Day 2 was FUNNY! When we were asked to do some tasks to win and when the boys were dancing to some Hindustan's song and we, the girls were singing to some what Hindustan's song. I can't even sing but to laugh at the boys. The leader and Shuk were the most funniest creature I've ever met. MY GOD! They were so mad, I tell you. But pity, we've been tricked by the poyo and tah ape2 tah punye facilitator Encik Razi. I knew it that he was lying at us, but still the leader was trying so hard but always taking the long way. HUH! But still, I had fun.
Day 3, the day I came back home and already miss the memories I had there. Class like usual until 430. Then taking pictures, food, Facebook and all. We shared a lot together and I am so happy to actually have them as my group members. I LOVE the WARRIORS! Even though our leader is a poyo guy, but still, thanks for being a leader yang tak bertauliah. HAHAHAHAAH!!!! Sorry, leader. ^^"" Warriors Hot to Go!!!!

Sigh...

2010-03-13T19:16:00.000+08:00

So I guess I lost her? I don't know. She seems to be gone from us. I miss her so much, but she seems to not know about it. I miss her, we miss her. -sigh- But if she really wanted to leave us, I don't mind. She won't treat us like she used to. I still have lots of people who I care. My best friends; Hyerim, Choi Top hyung [Taera], Maknae [Sangra], Minra [Sarra] Baby, E-Jump, Honey [Faiz], Yunni, Faithy, Naomi, Eunha unnie, Ara unnie, Sae unnie... Did I missed someone? That's it, I guess. OH, WAIT! My sister in law, Moon Ila. Kekeke... I love you guys so much!

I Love Ok Taecyeon...

2010-03-09T16:44:00.000+08:00

Hahaha! I used to hate him the most in 2PM but not anymore. The reasons why I hated him before because he's weird? Not that cute? Well, I can't really understand why I used to hate him, well not like I hate him or what, just dislike him? Sort of, well I like him now. Ok Taecyeon is such a nice guy. LMAO! Kinda cute, I guess thanks to Wild Bunny. He definitely looked cute, especially with the Dooly face. Hahaha! And thanks, sister in law; Ila-Chan. But still, Junho is the best! Oh and Toshio Wooyoung AND the Italian Maknae Hwang Chansung! The rest... just at the average level. But 2PM is the 3rd BEST, after my SHINee and BigBang. Muahaha!!!

But 2PM is now not as strong as they used to be. Ever since Jay left about couple of months ago, everything changed. I want Jaebeom back! He should just stay, 2PM will never be perfect without Jaebeom (But still they are perfect). I miss Park Jaebeom! I miss him so much! Even though how many time I pray and please, he will never come back to 2PM. No one can ever take his place as the leader in 2PM. 2PM will always be together, the 7 of them; Park Jaebeom, Kim Junsu, Nickhun, Ok Taecyeon, Jang Wooyoung, Lee Junho and Hwang Chansung. No more, no less. 7 is perfect!

Why Can't I get them??!!

2010-03-08T23:40:00.000+08:00

Why can't I get this? My dream SPX Street Slam Hi Sneakers [The blue, yellow and pink sneakers]~ This is way too cool, dude. This is a LIFE TIME! But this cost me 500$ which means if I convert it to Ringgit, that will cost me about thousand plus. MY GOD! I want this SO badly. But this is the limited edition. I will never get this fosho. Until I die, I will never get this. -sigh- AHHH!!! This is KILLING me! I am totally falling in love with it! My heartbeats faster than I thought for actually staring at it. This is way too expensive for unemployed like me. I want this So badly!!!

AND the Pierre Hardy "Perspective Cubes" Limited Edition Sneakers [The black and white sneakers]~~ I want them all!!! But they are only 500 units in the whole world and definitely they don't have them in Malaysia. -sigh- For my entire life, these two sneakers really making my heartbeats faster each time I stare at them. For Pete's sake, I WANT THEM ALREADY!!!

Maknae Seunghyun

2010-02-17T18:54:00.000+08:00

Where did this little maknae gone? Why did they changed him to some mature, hot, sexy man? And he is still a KID! A GUY! NOT A MAN! Come on, don't make him lose his cuteness and the maknae look. Don't ever change him to the strong baby type of man! I mean, he is my strong baby. HAHAHAH... BUT! He's not hot! He's not sexy! He's CUTE! He's a kid with cute attitudes. So don't change him will ya?!

Jiyong! Why did you ever wrote a song like that for him? He can't be a grown up yet! He's still an underage kid! What makes you a good leader when you changed him to that? Well, I can't blame you. YG, he's the maknae. Don't let him do that. I miss this Seungri. The one with cute smile, cute attitude and cute panda eyes. -beam- ^^

Well I guess I'm just missing the cute silly maknae Seungri and not the sexy hot maknae Seungri. But he is still MY BABY~ My God, I really need to overcome this or I'll slowly forget about Ondubu.

ONEW OPPA!!! Where have you been? Why didn't I find you attractive anymore? Why did you gone just like that? Now I really find that Seungri is DAMN GOOD LOOKING. AHH!!! Why can't I stop from thinking about Seungri??? And the "V.I like this" keep on repeating and the "Crack, crack, crack, crack" too. Huhuhu.. =.=

Maybe the Seungri fever hit on me, that's why. But I'll get over it. I'll recover....hopefully.

1 Year Station

2010-02-15T00:17:00.000+08:00

말할 수가 없어

Malhal suga upsuh

I can’t say

널 붙잡을 수가 없어

Nul butjabeul suga upsuh

I can’t hold you

떨리던 입술을 참았던 눈물을 보고도 모른 척 해야 해

Ddullidun ipsuleul chamatdun noonmuleul bogodo moreunchuk haeyadweh

I have to act like I didn’t see the shaking lips or the tears that were held back

날 안아줘 오늘 밤이 지나면 니가 없을 것 같아 슬퍼져

Nal anahjwuh ohneul bami jinamyeon niga upseul gut gata seulpuju

Hold me after this night goes, I’m sad because I feel like you’re not going to be there

더 빛나 지금 이 순간이 영원하길

Du bitna jigeum i soongani youngwonhagil

It shines more right now, hope this moment lasts forever

I’ll always waiting for u, all day I wait for you (oh hoho)

아무런 기약 없이 너만을 찾고 있어

Amurun giyak upsi numaneul chatgo itsuh

I’m searching for you with no promise

내가 서있는 1년 정거장

Niga suitneun ilnyeon junggujang

One year station that I’m standing at

세상이 우릴 질투 했다고 생각해

Saesangi ooril jiltoo haetdago saenggakhae

Think that the world was jealous of us

1년 정거장 이곳에서 너를 느낄 수 있어

Ilnyeon junggujang igotsehsuh nureul neuggil su itsuh

One year station, I can feel you at this place

그대가 없는 텅 빈 정거장 나중에 우리 다시 만나길 기도해

Geudaega upneun tung bin junggujang najoongeh oori dashi mannagil gidohae

The empty station where you’re not at, pray that we meet again

1년 정거장 이곳에서 너를 꿈꿀 수 있어 ah ah ha

Ilnyeon junggujang igotsehsuh neureul ggomggul su itsuh ah ah ah

One year station, I can dream of you at this place ah ah ha

(아니 아니 아니) 아니라고 단 한밤 아니라도

(ahni ahni ahni) ahnirago dan hanbam ahnirado

(no no no) Even if it isn’t only one night

거짓말이라고 꼭 알아줘 난 아니라고

Gujitmalirago ggok alahjwuh nan ahnirago

Know that it’s a lie, it’s not me

우리 만남은 처음부터 엇갈린듯한 긴긴긴 버퍼링

Oori mannameun chueumbutu utgallimdeutham gingingin bupuring

Us meeting that crossed each other from together, the long long long buffering

너와 내 사이엔 다시 넝쿨이 현실 속 무서운 정글이

Nuwa nae saien dashi nungkooli hyunshil sok musuoon junglei

Bush of ivy between you and me again, the scary jungle in reality

널 일으켜주고 싶어 but 그럴 힘이 없어

Nul ireukyujugo shipuh but geurul himi upsuh

I want to help you up but I don’t have the strength to do that

이런 내 자신이 싫어 긴 기다림에 지쳐

Irun nae jashini shiluh gin gidarimeh jichu

I don’t like myself doing this; I’m tired of waiting for so long

비록 몸은 멀리 있더라고 서로 맘은 변치말자고

Birok momeun muli itdeurado seuro mameun byunchi maljago

Even if we’re far away from each other let’s keep our love

이건 내게 짐이 아닌걸 아주 잠깐의 휴식인걸

Igun naegae jimi ahningul aju jamggameui hyushikingul

This isn’t a burden for me, it’s just a short break

너무나 놀랐어 그날이 올 줄 정말 몰랐어

Numuna nollatsuh geunali ol jool jungmal mollatsuh

Really surprise, I didn’t know that the day would really come

이기적인 자만심 때문에 너의 소중함을 잘 몰랐어

Igijukin jamanshim ddaemooneh nueui sojoonghameul jal mollatsuh

I didn’t know how precious you were because of my selfishness

365 다시 1번 버스 내가 기다리던 너라는 버스

365 dashi ilbun buseu naega gidaridun nuraneun buseu

365 again the number one bus, the bus that I’m waiting for which is you

여느 날처럼 환한 미소 지으며 내 품에 다가와줘

Yeoneu nalchurum hwanhan miso jieumyu nae poomeh dagawajwo

Come into my arms having a big smile like you would do on an ordinary day

내가 서있는 1년 정거장

Niga suitneun ilnyeon junggujang

One year station that I’m standing at

세상이 우릴 질투 했다고 생각해

Saesangi ooril jiltoo haetdago saenggakhae

Think that the world was jealous of us

1년 정거장 이곳에서 너를 느낄 수 있어

Ilnyeon junggujang igotsehsuh nureul neuggil su itsuh

One year station, I can feel you at this place

그대가 없는 텅 빈 정거장 나중에 우리 다시 만나길 기도해

Geudaega upneun tung bin junggujang najoongeh oori dashi mannagil gidohae

The empty station where you’re not at, pray that we meet again

1년 정거장 이곳에서 너를 꿈꿀 수 있어 ah ah ha

Ilnyeon junggujang igotsehsuh neureul ggomggul su itsuh

One year station, I can dream of you at this place ah ah ha

니 작은 맘에 니 작은 손에 상처를 남기지 말아줘

Ni jakeun mameh ni jakeun soneh sangchureul namgiji malahjwuh

In your small heart, in our small hand don’t leave a scar

니 작은 어깨에 니 예쁜 눈에 어두운 미래 보이지 않기로 해

Ji jakeun uhggaeeh ni yaebbeun nooneh udooeun mirae boeeji ahngiro hae

In your small shoulders, in your pretty eyes promise to not see the dark future

내가 서있는 1년 정거장

Niga suitneun ilnyeon junggujang

One year station that I’m standing at

세상이 우릴 질투 했다고 생각해

Saesangi ooril jiltoo haetdago saenggakhae

Think that the world was jealous of us

1년 정거장 이곳에서 너를 느낄 수 있어

Ilnyeon junggujang igotsehsuh nureul neuggil su itsuh

One year station, I can feel you at this place

그대가 없는 텅 빈 정거장 나중에 우리 다시 만나길 기도해

Geudaega upneun tung bin junggujang najoongeh oori dashi mannagil gidohae

The empty station where you’re not at, pray that we meet again

1년 정거장 이곳에서 너를 꿈꿀 수 있어 ma baby

Ilnyeon junggujang igotsehsuh neureul ggomggul su itsuh ma baby

One year station, I can dream of you at this place ma baby

내가 서있는 1년 정거장

Niga suitneun ilnyeon junggujang

One year station that I’m standing at

세상이 우릴 질투 했다고 생각해

Saesangi ooril jiltoo haetdago saenggakhae

Think that the world was jealous of us

1년 정거장 이곳에서 너를 느낄 수 있어

Ilnyeon junggujang igotsehsuh nureul neuggil su itsuh

One year station, I can feel you at this place

그대가 없는 텅 빈 정거장 나중에 우리 다시 만나길 기도해

Geudaega upneun tung bin junggujang najoongeh oori dashi mannagil gidohae

The empty station where you’re not at, pray that we meet again

1년 정거장 이곳에서 너를 꿈꿀 수 있어 ah ah ha

Ilnyeon junggujang igotsehsuh neureul ggomggul su itsuh ah ah ah

One year station, I can dream of you at this place ah ah ha

Hm...

2010-02-15T00:03:00.000+08:00

Basically, it's Chinese New Year and it's a YAYY~~~ Having the best time ever, I guess. Spending time with my family but, why did they let my sister worked on the first day of new year??? We were supposed to spend time together. Aish! They should read the resume carefully, my sister is CHINESE! Same goes to me...^^ So she was supposed to have her leave on new year...

Don't wanna talk about it, I'm tired and bored. But since that I'd just done downloading my Big Bang Documentary and SHINee Hello Baby, so I guess my time will just fly in seconds... Hahaha...=] I guess I'm being happy now...

There are so many people that I miss SO MUCH! YUNNI DONGSAENG, FAITHY, FAIZ and EUNHA UNNIE!!! I haven't been talking to them since like forever and I miss them SO MUCH! When will I be able to talk to them? -sigh-

For today, picture of the day will be the one above...^^ Yup, it's Seungri baby... hahaha... I guess I really LIKE him now... Where did my Ondubu gone??? I really need to find him back... Ahaks...^^

Hah?

2010-02-11T15:18:00.000+08:00

Tired! I'm tired. Feel like having my 24 hours straight of sleep. Can't I get it, even for once? Aw, come on. Aish! Sleepy, tired, feel like scream out of the lung! Dilemma, yes I am suffering right now. What should I do? He didn't really attract me lately and now the other one is running for the first place. MY GOD! No way, this can't be. For Pete's sake, I really don't know what should I do. AHHH!!!

Enough, to the next topic. Well basically, homework. I have tons of them to be done before my Chinese New Year. YAYY~~~ Chinese New Year! I can't wait, oh my GOD, oh my GOD! But thinking about my homework really make me feel oh so sick! Aigoo, can't the teachers let us go for just this once. Please and so please for God's sake.

Someone is seducing me. Someone with the cutest face? I guess. He really good at this, isn't he? Seducing me with aegyeo? That really melt me. *blushing* Ahaaaa, I think I really did fall for his aegyeo. ^^ I LOVE YOU, MUUAAHHH!!!

AGAIN! 24/7, My Heaven.

2010-02-07T13:20:00.000+08:00

When I woke up this morning, I found myself was in shock. Keep on blinking my eyes to find if I was really having that dream. I smiled to myself and looked up at my posters and definitely saw my Ondubu but then I looked down and only saw Seungri. Yes, I dream about him. A wonderful loving comfortable dream.

Seungri was so sweet. His attitude and all. There was an event if I'm not mistaken and they asked me to play the piano, but the thing is I can't play. I didn't even know how to play. That thing happened so quickly, I didn't even had the chance to tell them that I can't play but they all left, leaving me alone.

But then suddenly I was at the event. Sitting with my sister and there were many celebrities, but I don't know how me and Seungri were friends. I didn't remember if the other Big Bang was there but Seungri was there. He sat at the next roll. I was too nervous and I don't know what to do. The performance keep on going and soon my turn will come. I stood up and ran away from the hall, ran out along the hallway until I reached out from the building.

Seungri was following me. I didn;t notice him until I heard him calling me. I stopped and sat on the floor; crying. He asked me why, but my crying made me couldn't speak. I was sobbing and he pull me and embraced me, patted on my head which really calm me a lot. I told him about it, and for my surprised, he said it was nothing to be worried about. If I can't play, then don't. He said he'll handle it for me. He stroked my back and kissed my forehead. He smiled warmly and helped me up. He held my hand and brought me back to the hall.

On the way back, he said he'll handle it for me so I don't have to be worried about it. I went back to my seat and then my sister told me that SHINee just performed. I was like "WHAT THE FISH?!" I missed their performance! I was disappointed, the my dad popped out from nowhere. He told me to go over to Seungri, he asked me to sit next to him, so I just followed. I sat next to him and pouted. He talked to me and we laughed. So happy.

But then I can't really remember anything. I woke up and duh, the dream was over. I'm happy, my Baby Ri was CUTEE!!! I guess this will be one of the best dream. ^^

Love Confession

2010-02-05T01:13:00.000+08:00

I know I'm acting like a fool now. But there's nothing I could do. For this whole thing to happened so suddenly really annoyed me. I mean, what was he thinking? I'm not some slave that you can commend me with your stupid things! This really made me pissed off! I can't stand it anymore, I wanna leave...SOON! No more playing stupid games with him. No more with his stupid attitude. And that's it! I'm leaving for Pete's sake!

I knocked on the door, waiting for him to answer. But no answer in return. Another knock but a bit harder yet, no answer. Aish! Another one last knock but 50% harder and, "Come in". FINALLY! After waiting for like forever, he let me in. "SO, what brings you here?" "Can we have a talk?" "We're having a talk now, aren't we?" "Can we cut off the deal?" "Cut off the deal?" I nodded. No respond from him. I guess he was thinking about it more than ten times.

I left his room since that he made me looked like a statue there. He didn't give me any answer. Seriously, I can't read his mind. He used to be kind but now, no more kindness to me. What a jerk! "YAH!" I turned to his room and "What?" "You can't cut off the deal as long as I say no." "But why?" "That's my answer, bye for now. And close the door properly, you didn't just now." "Yah!" "I wanna have some nap, so you may out from my room." That's it! He just kicked me off like that and covered himself with the blanket.

MY GOD! "YAH, CHOI SEUNGHYUN!" My mind really did screamed out. Why can't I just have a nice deal with him? He did promised my dad to take care of me, but not in this way! Fine, maybe he let me stay here, even have a proper meal and all. That is nice, but the way he treats me like slave, I just couldn't let him! He has to pay for it! And I just know what to do now...hehehe...

Minutes later, I opened the door to his room slowly without making any cracking sound. I could see him sleeping soundly and maybe...cute? Aish! Why am I even thinking about that?! Get rid of it! But to tell you the truth, he really does look cute with that face, so peaceful. I let out a small sigh for the fact that I actually kinda...er...like him.

No matter what! Still, Imma gonna continue with my plan. Hehehe... I slowly walked towards Seunghyun's bed and smile evilly. "You know what, imma gonna make you regret with your answer. Hehe" I was holding a tape and planned on letting him had an unforgettable wax experience. He was still sleeping and not know that I was right in front of him. I pull his blanket and just yet, he pull up back. Aish! Again, I pull his blanket slowly. Now the blanket was removed. "YES! My plan is gonna work." I smirked.

I pull the tape as long as I could and cut it. Hehe, this is gonna be FUN! I screamed in joy; in my mind. But then just when I about to paste it on his leg, "What are you doing? With that?" He looked at me with gloomy eyes. "Er...Nothing? Haha..." That awkward laugh, he will surely know my dirty plan. "I'll go and cook for your dinner." I tried to escape from him but then he held my wrist and pull me, making me fall on the bed. "Ya...Yah! Wh..What are you doing...HUH?!" "Did I told you to go?" "Deh?" Oh God, please don't do this to me. Aish! "Ya...Yah! Get off me, you monkey!" I tried to push him but he's a guy, tsk tsk...too strong for me. He looked at me continuously which made me felt so awkward and blush. Oh please someone, anyone. This was way too much.

'BANG!' The door opened, Seungri looked at us, the awkward position and all. "Er...Sorry." He then closed the door and even went out which left the loud 'BANG' sound of the main door. Aish! Suengri is really a pabo to the power of 3; means pabo pabo pabo! Why did he left?! Now Seunghyun's attention is all on me. He came closer and really looked into my eyes, which made me drawn in them. Kisses were replaced by the stares. I closed my eyes and go with the flow. The kisses that really made me drawn. He stopped and looked at me.

"You know the reason I don't want you to go is because..." He stopped. "You...love...me?" He nodded. For Pete's sake, I actually saw him blushing. Was he for real? I smiled, so I'm not experiencing an one sided love. "Aish! You're making blushing!" He sat up and hid his face. Aw... That was so cute of him. I sat up after him, poke the side of his arm. He dragged his hand but then. "Come on, don't be shy. Hahah!" I laughed. "I love you too, so we're equal." He looked at me in shocked. "You love me??" "Is there any problem with that?" "No, I mean..." "You don't have to, it's been awhile since I like you. But just that I don't know what to do." "But why are you leaving?" "Hm...because I can't face you anymore and your nonsense attitude." "But then you like me? Nonsense attitude but still love me." He smirked.

Well, my confession mission's DONE! "Yah." "Deh?" "Can I continue?" "With what?" "The last thing I did." "Your nap?" "No, not that one." "Then?" Huh! Continue with the kiss??? "PERVERT!!!"

A Fool

2010-02-02T00:26:00.000+08:00

Yeah (love is breakin’) I know girl (you know my situation)
Right time but I can’t (say goodbye)
Girl (our separate ways)
Saying that I love you don’t cha?

Don’t g-g-g-go don’t l-l-l-leave me and go
I don’t have the c-c-c-confidence, don’t fool my t-t-t-two eyes
Don’t g-g-g-go don’t l-l-l-leave me and go
I’m s-s-s-still waiting for you like a f-f-f-fool

The withered rose bouquet, your scent still
Even though I want to erase it, it can’t be erased
Are you leaving only holding vague memories
I loved everything about you
Why are we trying to go down different roads
You should have been truthful, you should have embraced me
I don’t know anything but you, you should have held me, you fool…

I still don’t understand love
Why do you keep getting farther away from me
Like a fool in front of your door
Hurt and turned away, only my sad image
Still unresolved misunderstandings
Inside there’s a longing for the troubled you
I miss you so at least like this in your
Heart I just want to live and breathe

I love you, I don’t love you
You’re coming back, you’re not coming, I miss you…

I’ve cried all night, I’ve called out to an unresponsive you
I’ve hid avoiding the world, the moment you left I’ve been dying
Still not a single thing has changed
The constantly deepening disease, only I’ve been hurting
(This star) is (love) is tiring, you fool

Although I’m left alone inside me your memories hold onto me
Don’t separate from the last leaf, grab my hand

Take all of the letters and pictures you gave to me
Even if they’re thrown away they’re never erased from inside me
Because of my hopeful heart I stay up all night again
Will I not be able to let go of this little hope

Still unresolved misunderstandings
Inside there’s a longing for the troubled you
I miss you so at least like this in your
Heart I just want to live and breathe

Oh oh oh oh oh are you just getting farther away
Oh oh oh oh oh only my sad, turned away image

Love

2010-01-31T18:34:00.000+08:00

This will be a one-shot. I mean a fanfic. It is random since that I just feel like writing. And the title will be "Love".

I came out from the door to find Onew was standing in front of the door with his head looking down on the floor. Once he tilted his head and met my eyes, again, I felt butterflies in my stomach. "Wh..what are you doing here?" I wasn't sure what should I say. "It's morning." "And?" "Let's have some breakfast together." He smiled warmly which made me nod without me knowing that I actually nod to him. "Then let's go." He grabbed my hand and push the door closed.

It was great to have a morning walk with him like I used to have. But this time, it was a bit different. Maybe because our relationship is not just a normal friends relationship, maybe because our relationship changed to a lover relationship. Well I do love him, but it took awhile for me to totally fall in love with him. Not to mention, he's one of the hottest kids in school together with his other 4 best friends. Well basically, I'm not his friend before Key introduced him to me. Yes, it is true that Key is my best friend and will forever be, together with Jaejin; we are the best friends forever.

I broke up with Seungri and he left me with such a hurtful feelings. He was my first love, I love him so much. He was nice, sweet but in the end, he just couldn't except the closeness between me, Key and Jaejin. I always think about them first before anyone else. They meant a lot to me. But Seungri just couldn't except it, so he left. I was hurt back then, but Key introduced me to Onew, Jonghyun, Minho and Taemin; his best friends. They are all so nice and cute.

After a year of being friends with them, I gave each of them a nickname. Jonghyun and Minho are both my oppas, Key is my best friend, Taemin is my ice-cream buddy and Onew? Hm... Used to be my dorky friend but now, he's my true love. The one that I love the most. No doubt.

The morning walk ended at a cupcake shop. Onew took me to a cupcake shop for breakfast? This is something new. "Let's have our breakfast here." He smiled. "Okay." "Are you okay with this?" "Yeah, why wouldn't I?" I laughed. The breakfast was nice and full of love? Haha... *blushing*

He sent me home, and promised me to pick me up in the evening for a walk by the beach.

I was too nervous so I knocked on the door; waiting for my brother to open the door. "What's wrong sweetie?" "Ji oppa, can you help me?" "With what?" "Er..." "Not telling me?" "NO,NO! I will." "Come in then." Jiyong oppa opened the door wider to let me in. "So?" He sat on his bed and patted the seat next to him. "Onew asked me out this evening." "And?" "What...should I wear?" "Ahaha, that's it?" "Well...yeah? What else?" "Nothing. So you want me to help you with your clothing?" I nodded. He always knew I'll find him for things like this.

We went out from Jiyong oppa's room and went to the closet room. "How do you want me to make you look like? Beautiful, cute or sexy?" "OPPA!" "What?" "Nothing." "Haha." "What do you think will suit me well?" I looked at him and gave him the best puppy look. "Cute will be good, since that Onew is cute. That will match. So let me see." Jiyong oppa looked through the clothes and found something for me. "Take this and this and this and this." He gave me and I left to my room to change. I came back to the closet room and let him see. "Do I look good in this?" "Yup!" He smiled. Currently I have a white medium long blouse, a black legging and a white flat as my shoes. "Let's change that to heels." He took a black shinny high heels and placed them in front of me. I wore and wait for him. "I'll tie your hair with a black ribbon." He combed my hair nicely and took just a bit of my hair and tie up with the ribbon. It was a half palm tree hair. I looked myself at the mirror and really satisfied with what he had done. "THANK YOU, JI OPPA!!!" I jumped and hugged him tight, a kiss on the cheek and I left. But before that, I could hear Jiyong oppa said "Have a good time, sweetie~".

Onew came with a white T and a red jacket with a black skinny jeans and colorful high-top sneakers. But the first thing that attracted my attention was the snow cap he wore; the one I gave him. "I like it. thank you." He smiled while pointing at the snow cap. "Ready?" "Deh!" He smiled once again and grabbed my hand. He took me to a beach like he promised me.

I was so happy and the feelings with him and when I was with Seungri were different. So different. The happiness that Onew gave me is way too different from the one I received from Seungri. At this moment, the happiness that Onew gave me wasn't enough like how Seungri used to give me. Maybe still at this very little point, I still love Seungri. Even how hard I tried to get rid of him from my mind, I just couldn't.

I love Onew. I do really love him. But at the same time, I still love Seungri. I just couldn't forget about him. It is way too hard for me. I've try my best, but in the end I fail. I'm sorry, Onew. That's all I could say.

My Dearest OJ...

2010-01-29T17:23:00.000+08:00

It seems like I'm not gonna have my greatest day. He'll leave me, soon. And I still don't have the courage to tell him that I like him. Why do I have to face that almost everyone I love leave me? First that 'mangkuk kuali', then Zatie, next Baby and now OJ too? I just wanted him to just stay here and not leaving me. I don't want him to leave. It feel so bad! I hate it!

I can't imagine my days without him. One year of secretly liking him is a torture for me. By looking at him almost everyday in the past made me happy. Every morning, the first person I saw at school was him. And every day after school, the last person I was was also him. Looking at him from a distance was just enough for me. But that was in the past. That will never happen again. He's leaving me and THAT'S IT!

He'll probably won't come to school on Monday because he'll leave on Tuesday. There's nothing I can do but just a simple wish from where I am for him that already gone. For him to listen to my wish, that is impossible. He won't listen to what I say because I'm not gonna say it to him.

OJ...

I can do nothing now. I can't stop you either. Even though it is hard for me to forget about what had happened in the past year, by just looking at you secretly made me happy for the whole day. I'll always pray for you, keep up the good work, I'm sure you'll have a better live there. Just that, I won't forget about you. You left with such a wonderful memories for me to treasure in my heart. For now, my heart only beats for you...

Random...

2010-01-23T15:46:00.000+08:00

Aish! I don't know why but somehow I feel like killing someone now. But then somehow I feel like hugging someone. But yet again, somehow I feel like laughing...^^ I'm confuse with the feelings I have now. But still, I'm happy...currently.=D

I'm not sure of this but, should I or shouldn't I? Well I'm afraid he'll leave soon. But yet at the same time, I don't really mind because things will still remain the same. Well like I won't be talking to him for sure. But I really hope that I can gain all my courage to even talk to him, even though I've done it once. Do I really mind about him? Aish! Don't wanna think about it anymore.

Hm...cross country was tiring. But it's okay since that me myself willing to suffer for that. HAHAH!!! Got to know one of my junior even though it was kinda awkward for me and for her but still, I enjoyed.^^ With just only this once, I feel lonely for walking alone...HAH! I got caught by someone and that was weird.

Seriously, this is weird. What nonsense am I talking about? This is really weird for me. *sigh* He just made me do random things again... Feeling like SCREAMING OUT LOUD!!!

MINZY's BIRTHDAY!!! =D

2010-01-18T23:11:00.000+08:00

Yayy~~ Happy Birthday, Minzy...^^

It's the 2NE1's maknae's birthday... I'm happy for you, Minzy dongsaeng...

Hopefully this 2010 will be a good year for all of us and Y.O.U....

Daesung's twinie dongsaeng...^^ Minzy is always the cutest girl maknae...

May God bless you, have a great day even though they are still lots of works to do...^^""

But just ignore them for awhile... And LET'S CELEBRATE YOUR BIRTHDAY~~~<3

This is something random, just a normal wishing...

[Eat well, sleep well, play well, dance well, sing well, study well...]

Always love you, little Minzy...=]

What a Day...

2010-01-15T19:36:00.000+08:00

AT SCHOOL!!! I was happy, heavenly happy the whole morning. Guess what, for the first time ever in my whole life; leaving in this world as a human being; I actually talked to him.^^ And thanks to Minra though, I wouldn't be talking to him if it wasn't Minra. Thanks a lot, my so called 'sister-in-law'. That was before I entered the class. Things went so smoothly and E-Jump for sure making me laughed like mad. LOLL!!! Thanks a lot, buddy. Together with Hyerim we laughed like mad because of his stupid lame joke and imitations.^^ You really made my day, E-Jump.

When I got home at noon, as usual, I ran to my laptop and TADA~~ Faiz was there too. I miss you a lot, hon.<3>

Well, it's normal missing someone, isn't it? haha... My dad came back and he said I'll get the Rock Pit with my sister's help. hehe... But IF she willing to or I can't get it. Hopefully I'll have the chance. Anyways, I'm happy today.^^ SO HAPPY!!! Today will be one of the best day ever in my whole life. And will always pray to the God for a good life for you and me... We'll have a wonderful life.

OH! My hubby~~ He was too cute at Music Bank! I just felt like eating him up. How can he be so cute with a smirk on his face. Well not really cute though, that smirk made him looked H.O.T.!!! LOLL...^^; I can't imagine a life with him... *dreaming+blushing+giggling* Anyways, LOVE LOVE LOVE our tofu leader...<3>

Tired...

2010-01-12T20:19:00.000+08:00

Wah!!! This is just the second week of school and I'm almost die. Having a hard time to finish up my works and all. I just wanted a day off, that's it! A day off with no works to do, just rest and enjoy my day.^^ But that just won't happen. Add math is driving me crazy just like the my chemistry, physics and biology. Aish!

Well at least Hyerim is sitting next to me.^^ I'm glad that she stays and I have my best buddy with me. E-Jump is now officially my neighbor. Even though it was a bit funny at first, but I'm used to it now and actually having fun. But the best thing is that Hyerim lighten up my days with her stupid ridiculous lame jokes...

But when it comes to 'robot'...argh! He is too annoying with his 'drama'. Stop it, will ya. No one wants to see you. Talking about him make me wanna kill him more! Aish... I really shouln't have even say his 'name'.

School is fun but tired. I'm too afraid to sit on my big exam end of this year. I'm not ready yet and don't know when will I be ready for my exam. Hopefully everything will turn out good.^^

Last Farewell...

2009-12-31T14:56:00.000+08:00

Basically I went to school today. Wishing to God that I'll meet him at school. And guess what, I really met him! He was there at school, with his friends. Frankly speaking, I didn't really made that wish like I really wanna see him. Just that if I really meant to meet him, then I'll get the chance. So, he appeared at school and I was like SO DAMN HAPPY!!! He really is growing taller, taller than before. I came to school for the registration and he was there because of the same thing too...I guess. Well, heading up to my classroom with my mom. I was my add math teacher which is going to be my class teacher next year. And for my surprised, Hyerim was there^^, waiting for me. And what was next was I saw the always known as 'robot'. Seriously, he really is making me crazy. He really has to stop with his 'acting'. That faker is totally a pathetic creature. Being like what he is now is really making people hate him. Why don't he just stop with it? I mean like seriously, that isn't something fun or even funny. If he thinks that people will like say 'He's cool' or what so ever, he has to stop course no one think that way. Aish...

After the registration, I went to buy my books and TADA~~ He [not the robot] was there...^^ Buying books too. I was standing beside him but more like next to him. It was really hot, but he was there which made me happy enough to forget the hotness that was burning my skin. Hyerim was so loud, making him looked at us which also made me blushed. But thanked God that the hotness of the sun that was burning my skin covered up my already red cheeks.*^^*

I'm happy today.^^ My last farewell of 2009, seeing him for the last day of 2009. I'm super happy now. But he'll be leaving, I guess. He had such a good results, so he'll be attending college. But I really don't want him to go~~TT.TT But I'll be happy for him, he'll be a better student if really goes to the boarding school...

Today will be the last farewell for 2009, year of us! I'm really happy this year. There're lots of people I met. I'm happy that I gain lots of knowledge, lots of friends. The most precious will be my dongsaeng duel!!! Kim Yunni and Faithy Park! I love you girls SO SO MUCH!!!^^ Always wishing you good luck on your SAT...=) We shall meet again...

Let us sing LAST FAREWELL~~~ by Big Bang!

Again

2009-12-30T19:28:00.000+08:00

He came to me with his both eyes were totally loaded with salted tears; falling down from his eyes, non-stop. The tears that were falling from his eyes all the way to his chin were bitter; the feelings were bitter. The reason was still a secret. He just made me cried along with him like he did before. "It was too painful; too hard; too bitter. I can't stand it anymore, I don't wanna know anything about it. Those word were too harsh!" Then it all went into a blankness. What was that? I had no ideas about it. He stopped with his tears; laughing like mad. I was too confused. He laughed while his tears were still running out from his eyes. What was that? I really confused. He broke the hug; clinging on the collar of my shirt; looking at me like he was going to eat me. He laughed; an evil, scary laugh. He dropped his forehead on my shoulder, started to cry again.

"It was way too hard for me to handle it. No more, stop it, I don't wanna know! I'm a pathetic creature. Haha, it's funny, isn't it?" He said; crying, laughing, smirking. He was so different. So different from the one that I know. He then stopped; stopped from everything that he was doing just now. He tilted his head and looked at me; emotionless. He stared at me, which making me cried. He wiped the tears that were following down on my cheeks, he hugged me back. Patting on my head gentle, stroking my back smoothly.

"I'm sorry." That was the only word that came out from his mouth. I closed my eyes; hugging him back. The minute I opened my eyes, he was gone. Nowhere could be seen from my eyes, missing from the embrace. Totally gone. Where could he be? I called him "oppa!". But I heard nothing in returned. Again, that was all a lie. Again, what I was doing was all alone. AGAIN AND AGAIN!

I woke up, it was just a dream again. The time was around 3 in the morning. I went back to sleep. Really, I started to hate this dream. Keep on coming and go. Why was he feeling so sad in my dream? I just couldn't get it.

I heard noises, laughing and cheering. The feeling were happy. I could feel myself smiling. I opened my eyes, I found a big cake and lots of people. Some of the people that I know and some of the people that I don't know. The one who was standing beside me was...Minho?? All I could think of was "Why is SHINee's Minho is here? Onew and the rest were there too. They were singing a birthday song. OH YEAH! We have the same date of birth. But why are they celebrating my birthday too? The song ended with clapping hands.

I woke up, it was just a dream. Why am I having weird dream these days? Very weird, I don't like it! The dreams were happy and sad. I just don't like it, I felt like something is wrong. REALLY WRONG! I am happy now, but still. I don't really feel good with this.

Heavenly Happy and Sadness Like Hell...

2009-12-28T21:37:00.001+08:00

When I woke up, I found out that a smile was drawn on my face yet a drop of tear leaving one side of my eyes. I never felt this happy and this sad before, this could be the first time. I looked straight up at my closet; where my SHINee's, Big Bang's and FT Island's poster were placing on the side of my closet. My eyes caught at GD. He appeared in my dream; a wonderful, happy, beautiful, cute, sweet, comfortable yet sad dream. He was my brother, the only sibling that I had in my dream. In my dream, we don't even have mom and dad; just living in the world without parents. He's the only one who take care of me, being my comfortable blanket. Let me borrow his shoulder to cry on. He was so nice to me, I love him so much. Having him as my brother is something heavenly.

But it was all a dream. I could still remember every single detail about it. I was in my room; waking up from my deep sleep. He was the one who woke me up; with his caring, loving voice. He smiled to me as I opened my eyes. He told me that he will take me out for an outing after our breakfast. I got myself up and aiming for the bathroom. I washed up and ready for the outing. Went down to have my breakfast with him. He was there, waiting for me with a smile. We ate while having a little chat.

We went out, it was snowing and totally cold out there. He took me by his hand and we walked along the houses. My foot stopped from walking as I past by a house, I looked at the house; feeling like going in but GD dragged me with him. Somehow I felt something wrong, but I just couldn't figure it out. I tried to get rid the image of the house, but I failed. In my way, I kept on thinking the house and the event that I was supposed to be at. I just know that I need to enter that house. I stopped again making GD stopped from walking too. He asked me what's wrong and I told him that I need to go back to that house. He smiled which was a yes. He let go of my hand, he stood there without moving an inch. I ran back to the house; ringing the bell and waited for the owner to open the door. After waiting for like forever, the door opened. The one that was popping out from the door was...E-Jump?

He looked at me and started to throw tons of questions to me. Something like "What are you doing here?" "What do you want?" "I don't need you, so why are you here?". Maybe I was wrong, I wasn't suppose to be there. He seemed like kicking me out, so I better go before he throws tomatoes or eggs to me. I went back to where GD had left me. And with my surprised, he was still there; standing there while his whole body was trembling like a crazy man. I ran towards his direction, taking off my scarf and wrapped it around his neck. I took his hand and we walked back home. I just couldn't bare to look at him; suffer because of the coldness.

At home, I made him a hot chocolate; turned on the heater and let him rest. I almost cried; looking at him suffering because of me. We were not coming from a rich family, we were just living in a normal family. GD was working to support us both, he was the mother, the father and the brother. All three in one, he must be having a hard time. As I could remember in that dream, he was crying. Leaving dried up tears on his cheeks after a long cry. I was crying along with him; I was comforting him and he did the same to me. We both cried and; he was crying on my chest really hard, he was sobbing and sobbing. I cried on his shoulder, didn't even know why we're crying back then.

He patted on my head, it was like a habit of him patting on my head. He smiled warmly at me, saying that everything will be fine. As long as he is still living on this earth, there will be nothing can hurt me, he will protects me from everything that will hurt me. Believe me, I was totally melt with that. He was concerned about me, loving me more than anything. How I wish I could have him as my brother in the real life. Before he left to his room, he told me that someone will be coming and pay a visit. I wonder who would it be. I couldn't think of anyone.

I opened the door as I heard the door bell rang. The first person I saw was...Yunni?! On her left was Songyee. I was surprised with their appearance. I didn't expect this to be happened. They exactly were standing in front of me; smiling to me. The first thing that came out from her mouth was the word "unnie". I invited them to come in and have a seat. Even though it was a bit awkward for the first time meeting, but I was happy enough to finally meet them. So they were the two who GD meant just now. Yunni and Songyee were so sweet, I was too happy to say anything else other than 'I'm happy". They stayed for quite a while before leaving.

GD came down after the twinie left, he patted on my head again. He smiled sweetly to me; telling me that he loves me more than anything; telling me that he won't leaves me; telling me that he needs me by his side; telling me that not to be sad; telling me that he will always stays by my side. This whole thing just made me jumped into his embrace. He stroked my head gently, leaving me a deep feelings on him. Making me felt like I don't need anyone except for him, only him. Only him; living in the world is enough for me. I love him, more than anything. The one will always be by my side, the one that will protect me from being hurt. GD once said, "In this world, trying to find someone that is important is difficult. Trying to find someone that loves you is even more difficult. If you do find one, treasure; treasure them like I always do to you. Love them, care for them, eventually they will concern and take care of you when I'm not by your side.". I always hate it when he said that he'll leave me. I HATE IT! I don't like it when he said that.

I hate it, but it had already happened. He really left without any goodbye. He left me, how am I going to live when he's gone? How am I going to face the world? Who will I run to when I need someone? Why is he leaving me? I hate him! I hate him! I hate him for leaving me alone... He promised me that he will stay with me, that he will protect me. But why did he broke our promise? He actually died a year ago, the whole things that I was experiencing was all a lie. He wasn't there. I was alone, he wasn't there! I was talking alone, walking alone, smiling alone, eating alone, crying alone. Everything I did was all alone! That was just my imagination, imagination of him being with me the whole time. Maybe I still couldn't face the fact that he was gone. I really couldn't face it. My life is nothing but a miserable life.

This could be the first time I feel like REALLY, REALLY, REALLY having him as my brother. Even though it was just a dream, I really love him. I love him but in a totally different way. I love and care for him. Love him as a sibling but not more. Love him as the one will always stay by my side; comforting me when I am upset. Love him for being a nice and wonderful brother. I love you, Kwon Jiyong...

[p/s: It was just a dream, Ondubu is still my love!^^]

24/7, MY HEAVEN...

2009-12-25T09:39:00.000+08:00

Which one should I start with? Hm... Let me see. I'll start with the happy one first.^^ Today, the PMR exam results were coming to attack the kids who sat on the exam. And of course OJ is one of them. But surely he'll get straight ace for those eight subjects and guess what? I AM RIGHT!!!!!! He really got straight ace for his results...^^ I'm happy for him, my twinie... But mostly my son? That was what my friends said. Me+Onew=OJ...LOLL!!!

MINRA!!! You're great! Thanks a lot for the blog edit. I know you're the best.^^ And as the reward, we watched Family Outing! And our stomach were like going to blow in any minutes... Dumb and Dumber were so cute, funny, sweet, adorable and LOLL... Jaesuk imitated GD and Daesung was acting so CUTE~~

AND! I didn't miss my IRIS... TOP-SAMA was so cool and handsome, no doubt...=)

TOMORROW IS CHRISTMAS!!! HAPPY CHRISTMAS TO ALL!!! Specially to KIM YUNNI AND FAITHY~~ Marry Christmas, to both cute twinie...^^ I Love Both of YOU!<3

[p/s: to Nii, Marry Christmas and don't be a naughty dongsaeng. Christmas present from me will be...ANY WISHES that you want from me. I can't really give you anything though, so all I could do is that pray for your happiness and good health...^^]

]p/s: to Faithy, Marry Christmas!!! I'm not too old for you to call unnie, right? haha... But still, I'm used to it somehow. Christmas present for you from me will be...ANY WISHES that you want from me. I'll pray for that so that your wish come true. I'll pray for your happiness and good health...^^]

AGAIN! MARRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!

Feeling Down...

2009-12-17T19:07:00.000+08:00

YUNNI~~~ He just won't talk to me anymore. I tried to reach him, but he just won't pick up. I called him like a million time and I'm getting piss off! What is wrong with him? I was just feeling upset about something. He never takes what I said so seriously, but somehow he did for this time. I said I'm sorry, but he TOTALLY ignored me! I tried so many things but he just won't forgive me. I'm very regret of saying that. But still, I was right. He was just using me after all. I thought that he's my friend, but why didn't he just understand me. I know that he met new friends at myspace, I don't mind that. Just that I'm a bit disappointed with him. Why am I being so touching? It doesn't mean that I like him. I just don't wanna lose him, Putera left and now he wanna do the same? Why did people keep on throwing me away? Sigh~~

Dongsaeng-ah~ What should I do? You know the story, so tell me. What should I do? Just let it be or try again? But seriously, I'm giving up with it already. No more! I won't call him anymore. If he thinks that he's fine with everything, then he''ll find me somehow. That was what my mother said.

Sengil Chukahaeyo, Onew...<3

2009-12-14T16:27:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday, oppa...^^ As usual, you're getting older... May God bless you and be sure that you take care of yourself. You've been sick lately and I'm worry about you. Be strong and don't get sick so easily. You're always my love...*giggles; blushing*

Take care of the rest and yourself, don't force yourself too hard. It's not good for you, be at the same time it is good; so that you can show a lot of things to us. LOL!!!:))

You've been the best all the time and thanks for the gags that you show us. You're always the best!^^

And it's been a year since that I like you... haha^^"" Onew oppa is the BEST! I love you and will always love you. I have a good time after knowing you, oppa. You really make my days pass with just in a seconds...^^

You're always in my heart and in my mind. I never like or love someone like I did to you.^^ A BIG BIG L-O-V-E for you...=]

Saranghamnida...<3

Sengil Chukahaeyo, Baby Ri...

2009-12-12T00:37:00.000+08:00

Seungri-ah, Sengil chukahaeyo...

Happy Birthday, Panda...^^

You're getting older but you are still Big Bang's maknae. I love you.
Be the best maknae for your hyungs and don;t stop from acting cute, I love it when you act like that...<3

May God bless you. Be happy and listen to your hyungs. Don't get into troubles like your crazy leader, Jiyong.^^ kekeke...

Be the best and work hard. But don't force yourself too much.

-Eat well

-Sleep well

-Rest well

-Play well

-Dance well

-Sing well

I love you, my Baby Ri...^^

I Had Enough...

2009-12-01T20:17:00.000+08:00

I HATE her so much! She is not the one that I know 3 years ago. She did change to the WORSE! I HATE her now! She is not Baby anymore... She is not the Baby I know. She is Tot now. I HATE ADA! She made Baby change! Baby even yelled at me. She never yell at me, even once. But now she yelled at me and for the first time I cried because of her. Her yell, the voice that she used, I will never forget. How painful it was. I was enough with everything I have and she add it more. We're not even her best friends anymore. She never thinks about us anymore. All she cares is her friends there. She did this to us, has she even think about our feelings? She's just using us after all for her outing with her friends there. I H.A.T.E. H.E.R!!! I am not your toy, Baby. Or should I call you 'TOT'... I had enough with this. In this 1 year, I had enough with this. First with Nas, second with Nelly and E-Jump, now with Baby. I cried enough this year. I had enough of being a good girl, I had enough on following other peoples' butt, I had enough on being bullied. I am tired, very tired. I don't like this. Why am I the only 1 who has to listen to other? Why can't just they listen to me this time? The same things happened to Hyerim. Why do we need to listen to other? Why can't they just understand us? We are human being and we do have a heart and feelings. I just don't get it. Maybe I was born to be a loser. Maybe this is what the God want to. Maybe this is my punishment for being a bad girl. *sigh*

2009-11-23T10:08:00.000+08:00

YAYY~~ I got this from Taera unnie...^^ Komawoyo, unnie.. She made this for me the other day but I didn't post it here since that I was busy with my exams. This is really nice and I like it a LOT.<3 She made it in a rush but still, I like it. So SWEET~^^ I'll make something nice for you too, kay?=]
Just wait for it. MAKE SURE you WAIT for it... ARASO?!^^v

MAMA Awards...

2009-11-22T10:44:00.000+08:00

He is crazy after all... haha:)) I didn't expect him to bring Gaho along. But that was so cute. He really loves his dog; Gaho. He brings him everywhere he goes and even in his music video. And he even won the MAMA Awards for the Album of the Year. I thought that he'll bring Gaho on stage... haha..^^" but he didn't.
Good job, Jiyong oppa and 2NE1 too for winning the Song of the Year.=]... Gaho has grown bigger, when the first time I saw him, he was just a little puppy. But now, Jiyong must be giving him a lot of food. LOL!!
The YG Family came but the SM Town didn't. I really hope to see SHINee there since that ONEW IS BACK!!! Onew oppa is back, back, back...^^ I'm happy that he was still smiling when he performed Ring Ding Dong at Music Core... Anyways, hopefully they'll attend other music awards.^^v

I feel like screaming...

2009-11-16T16:02:00.000+08:00

Winglin really is driving me CRAZY and I HATE it! It just won't work. I thought that I wanna update my SHINee vs. Empty and Foolish Love but thanks to pabo Winglin that now I can't. I've just finished my final year exam but why do I feel weird? Recently, E-Jump seems to be acting weird. Everytime I talk to him, he'll fight back and he keep on making me angry. Argh! I know that now he doesn't need me anymore since that he had his Lala and Little T. But still, I'm a human being, so please do respect me and my feelings. *sigh*
Thanked God that I passed my Chemistry...=] Even though my marks were not that good, but at least I passed. I hope that I will remaind at the same class next year with my friends. "KANG HYERIM, you better make yourself stay at Creative. We're going to be in 5 Creative, we will; hopefully...
Onew oppa, I hope that he'll get better. I really miss him. That pabo piggy flu! I really miss the 5 of them performing on stage as a group. I'll always pray for you, oppa...^^

My first week of exam and other things...

2009-10-30T19:08:00.000+08:00

Sigh~ The first week of exam and I am totally worn out! So tired and sleepy and lack of energy... The first paper on Wednesday and I think that I can at least score my paper, but not really sure. My second paper was my English language and I felt happy when I wrote my essay. I think that teacher Zaleha knows that I love writing love stories... Uhm *cough* lol:)) I wrote about me and Dara, hahaha... and I'm the guy, haha, funny... But still, I think that Hyerim's story is the best. It's about alien and she fell in love with the alien but in the end, it was just a dream. And for today, my History paper and don't ask about it. It's hard and I can't really answer all, only the essay part but still, the qustions made me wanna SCREAM!!
Just two more weeks to go and I'm done. But for next year, maybe I won't have the time for entertainment. I don't wanna sit for my SPM exam! But it's for my own good, I need to do it even though I don't want. I need to study hard for good results. Yup, need to be a good girl.. lol:))

Today's Music Bank was awesome! Onew looked ADORABLE and Key looked cool... They tried to make Onew looks mature, but in the end they failed. Onew still as cute as he used to be and always be.^^ AND they even won! Yayy~~ Even SS501 lost to them. Good job, boys...

I wanna go to GD's Shine A Light concert! I wanna go, wanna go... But I can't get the ticket for sure and how am I supposed to go? By what? Ella unnie must be dying to go. She LOVES GD and I know she'll find a way to go but I also know in the end she can't go. The ticket was sold out for the first concert and now for the second concert I know that it will be the same. Never mind, just imagine I'm there watching him perform... Good luck, GD...^^

SHINee's 2009, Year of Us

2009-10-19T18:41:00.000+08:00

Yayy~ The songs are all out! Time for download... hehe...^^

There are 6 songs all together. And one of them is Onew's solo which is my fav. hehehehe...........^0^

These are the tracklisting:

1. Y.O.U

2. Ring Ding Dong

3. Jojo

4. Get Down (ft. f(x) Luna)

5. SHINee Girl

6. The Name I Loved (Onew's Solo)

You may download it here:

http://www.sendspace.com/file/jky9h1

Hwiting, dongsaeng-ah...=]

2009-10-06T11:49:00.000+08:00

OJ gonna have his PMR tomorrow. This year is his turn for having this BIG exam and lucky me past with flying colours. Thank God. I love him SO SO much, he's my everything(almost). Wishing you all the best, OJ. I know that you can past the exam because you're as smart as me... hahaha... No, no. You're smarter than me for sure.
Thanks to Onew, if I didn't like him, I won't be able to know OJ. Well, you can say that they both look a like... That's why his name is OJ(Onew's junior). hahaha...:))
But the thing is, I haven't talk to him even ONCE. It's been almost a year since I know him, but I haven't talk to him before. What a loser I am.
Anyway, all the best and HWITING OJ...^0^

They are CUTE~ Agian...

2009-10-02T00:36:00.001+08:00

Cute GD and Gaho... I wish I could have a dog like that. Both look adorable. Gaho becomes bigger, maybe GD feed him too much. hehe..=p
But still, Gaho is the cutest dog I've ever see. You need to be good to GD, he gives you a lot of attention and now even you are porpular. Where ever GD is, you'll be there too right, Gaho?
Sleep well and sweet dreams...^0^

Saengil Chukahaeyo, Baby^^

2009-09-24T10:44:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday, Baby. It's your 16th birthday. Oh my, you're getting older and shorter. hehe...^^v May Allah bless you. Study well, sleep well. Don't make your fairy go mother (which is me) worry about you. You're 16 and you need to take care of yourself. I'm so damn worry about you now. After the phone call on last Tuesday, you said that you have some problems, I don't know what to do. I don't know what did they do to you, but you've change a lot. You're not the Baby that I know. It's been 5 month since you move and you did changed. Please come back, the old Baby. Wait, did they turn you into a weirdo? Seems like yes to me. But anyway, do you still the Baby that we all know? The Baby that will laught out loud, the one that will sing all day long, the one that will giggle everytime we talk about Siwon or even Lee Minho, the one that talk all day long? I miss that Baby. You know, the last time you came back, the only thing you talked about was Ada. Your friend there. And even now. Can I ask you a question? Have you ever miss us when you're there? The time we spend with each other seems to be shorten. I hope that you'll come back. We're waiting for your comeback stage!!!^^

Saengil Chukahaeyo, Key^^

2009-09-23T11:19:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday, Almighty Key a.k.a. Key eomma... It's your 18th birthday. May God bless you. It is just a very simple and random. My second fav. SHINee member. The one who brings happy to us all. Enjoy your birthday, Key eomma... Nothing for you, I guess. Be the best and cool member. And always be the crazy Key.^^v

If only I could have a crazy friend like you, no I do have a friend like you... haha...

Always be happy and I love you but not as much as I love ONEW...<3

SAENGIL CHUKAHAEYO~~~

Haha, you know. Even Minra, Tera and my unnie wish Key Happy Birthday. And I even asked my eomma say it. lol...:))

The best Key I know was when he's in Yunhanamdul. When he always stick with his microphone... Hahaha... Keep it up Key, be the most crazy MC...

Saengil Chukahamnida...^^

Otanjobi Omedeto...^^

[p/s: stop nagging at Taemin already, he's a big boy now. hehe...]

The Worse Day Ever...

2009-09-17T13:17:00.000+08:00

*sigh*. I came to school today with happy smile but came back home with unhappy feelings. I thought that today will be fun but I was wrong. Today I was like had a fight with my friend. At first I thought that I'm only going to be mad at him only for today or maybe until end of this week. I'm not that mad actually. This is all because of yesterday. It's all about the extra class.
He came to me just now at school after the teacher told him that I came. He said that he told me that morning. But the thing is I didn't even heard him. That time was a big mess, I can't hear anyone talking and he told me that time. He came to me and said that 'the teacher said that you came last night, but I told you already and you even nod.' He said that but I didn't hear a thing from him. He told my other best friends about it and now even my own best friends blame me. Why are they always be on his side rather than mine? My sister yelled at me in the car, than at home my dad's turn yelling at me. Two people were yelling at me yesterday and today, my friends put the plame on me. I was telling the whole things to Minra and then Tera came with Wookie; standing in front of my table.
At first they did say anything, just act like usual, then Tera started to ask 'you know the whole thing already? So come on, both of you are innocent.' I was so sad and was wondering, why didn't she on my side? I know everyone loves him, but why do I have to take this all? Then I told her what happened last night; about the yelling things and everything. But then, again; I was yelled by her this time ' Hey, he's innocent, okay.' A very loud one. I walked out from the class room to the staricase. I was crying really hard and no one came to me, even Wookie didn't. I was alone ans always though of the words best friend. Did the word best friend really exist? Why my own best friend yelling at me? Why didn't they came and comforted me? Why can't I have them by my side? But then, Minra came and I'm really thankful for that. Sometimes I felt more close to her then my other friends. She sat next to me and kept on comforting me.
I came in class later and still crying. I took out a paper and wrote to him that 'I'll take all the blame and I'm sorry.' I was still crying the whole lauguage period and after that. Biology time I got the paper back. I opened it and read. He said that he's sorry and asked me not to cry anymore. I looked at it and the one who writing wasn't him but Tera. I don't really mind that though. They didn't talked to me since the lauguage period until now. They didn't even say bye to me when going home. I know they were talking bad about me, I just know that. I want things to be back as usaul. Fine, I'll take all the blame and everything but please, please put things back to usual. I don't like things like this. And I'm sorry. *bow*

CUTE~

2009-09-02T11:42:00.000+08:00

I can't tell how cute they are. But GD and Gaho are just so cute.I wish I could have a dog like GD's. Hyerim loves GD's dog and always like its neck... lol^^
And I know that Hyerim will scream like mad after seeing this picture. I just know she will because I screamed like that too... hehe... Sleep well...^^

Need to Change

2009-08-31T15:58:00.000+08:00

I've just read Yunni's blog and found out that she realized that actually the God is the most important thing in the world. Good thing for you. But not for me I guess. Like myself, I really need to make myself clear that Allah always listen to our problems. I should also spend my time praying and all, not just sit back and play all the time. I should learn more about doing good things for my live and everything. I've been doing so many sin and I should stop doing all that and be a good girl... *nod* I know I can change myself for the better... But I just went too obsess with those Korean thingy... Now I'm confuse. But I need to believe on myself that I can change...

Yuuri's Territory

'Dear____, please____' Day~

So BEAST!

Dear Yoon Doojoon

My Random Feelings.

Yoseobie is the cutest!

[Dookwang, Dooseob, Kiseob] LOVE!

I Miss Them!

Idol Maid

Kiseop Hyung~

Bengkel Pandu Puteri Kelas II

SAENGIL CHUKAHAEYO, DOOJOON OPPA~!

BEAST Is The B2ST

I feel...weird.

Shoting

You Who I Love The Most

My Version of Strong Baby.

G-Ri is LOVE [Part 2]

Daesung oppa, SAENGIL CHUKAHAEYO~!

Saranghaeyo, Kwon Jiyong

거짓말 (Lies)

Relationship

Sengil Chukahaeyo, Mista Kim Jonghyun...

Dolly Again~!

Dolly~!

My Heaven

A Boy

Lolls~!

Goodbye Baby

BOMMIE'S BIRTHDAY~!

Games

Fall In Like?

Smart and Easy Math (Kem Perkampungan)

Sigh...

I Love Ok Taecyeon...

Why Can't I get them??!!

Maknae Seunghyun

1 Year Station

Hm...

Hah?

AGAIN! 24/7, My Heaven.

Love Confession

A Fool

Love

My Dearest OJ...

Random...

MINZY's BIRTHDAY!!! =D

What a Day...

Tired...

Last Farewell...

Again

Heavenly Happy and Sadness Like Hell...

24/7, MY HEAVEN...

Feeling Down...

Sengil Chukahaeyo, Onew...<3

Sengil Chukahaeyo, Baby Ri...

I Had Enough...

MAMA Awards...

I feel like screaming...

My first week of exam and other things...

SHINee's 2009, Year of Us

Hwiting, dongsaeng-ah...=]

They are CUTE~ Agian...

Saengil Chukahaeyo, Baby^^

Saengil Chukahaeyo, Key^^

The Worse Day Ever...

CUTE~

Need to Change

'Dear, please' Day~